31/12/10

Today is the last day of 2010. 2010 had been a sad year for me,i guess. Too many things happened, too many things change, I had walked on the wrong path. I couldn't see the light sometime, I was scared and being worried all the time, I lived in a dark world. From now on, I want to be a new person, the real me as Mei Yee said. I want to walk on the right path, make the right choice, do the right thing and be happy. That's all I want, I want a happy life, I want to be relax, not to feel stress all the time, I don't want pressure, I want to throw the rubbish away. It's whole new world. Today, I went out my dad, we went to Korean Street Food for brunch. We were the 1st to reach there which was cool! Haha! He bought me Baskin Robbins, thanks a lot! I think he should eat more, kesian my daddy,so skinny already, maybe is because he is old already. After that, I went to Emmelin house for countdown party, but it didn't look like a countdown party because we didn't countdown due to some reasons. It was just a party lah! Her mum was awesome cook, she can own a restaurant! I bought a half gallon Br for my friends and a quartz BR for my family. But,my friends and I ate the quartz and some of the half gallon! It was my fault!!! So sorry! I wished you all will forgive me!! Arghh!!! Naughty pinky ate the BR when I placed it on the floor! But, she looked cute when her face was filled with chocolate ice cream, I'm afraid that she'll get poison! Luckily, she didn't die! CHOI! TOUCH WOOD! I threw half of the remain ice cream. Stupid giraffe finished the BR because others didn't dare to eat anymore. Whatever! Giraffe didn't mind then it's okay. We played poker and played with dogs! Pei Ling, Emmelin and I went out to countdown although it was evening. I think the neighbours wanna throw something at us! Haha! It was fun but crazy! I said that I want to do something crazy and fun on the last day. Finally,I did it!!! Sorry for showing my apple face to you all. I knew I looked "healthy"! Haha!!! I won't touch beer anymore,I guess.I love the novels, giraffe! I will pay you!! Happy new year to everyone!

You'll never allow me to enter your heart

Brandon won't forget the first time he saw her, her beautiful face. The beautiful sunlight shone on her face, the wind blew her hair backwards caused her face to gleam in the light. Her beautiful smile was pictured in his brain, he wouldn't forget her smile which is the most beautiful thing in the world. He watched Janice every day at school, he wanted to talk to her so badly, but he didn't have the courage to do that. When he opened his mouth,nothing came out as if something had stuck in his throat. When she online, he would immediately double click and sent message to her. His face enlighten with a grin, he felt nervous and excited, he was waiting for her to reply. No word to type except hi and how are you. The beginning of the topic is always the same, but Brandon was satisfied with it. He could stare at her photo for hours, he was not being a pervert, he just like her too much. Every night, he would dream that Janice and him being together. It was the sweetest dream, unfortunately it was not a reality. One day, he made up his mind to confess his feelings towards her. She didn't feel happy bout it, she told him that she just like him as a friend and she offline. Brandon cried for the first time, she hurt him as if she stabbed a knife into his heart. He closed his mouth with his hand to stop himself from crying, he wouldn't give up, he would wait for her. He kept convinced to himself that she would come to him one day. The next day in the morning, Brandon saw Janice again, she was walking towards him, he stood there like a wood and waited for her. He couldn't see anything but her. The people around him had vanished, the sound of the people talking disappeared into the air. The rustle sound of the trees and the whooshing sound of the wind stopped as if they were watching them, watching Janice approached him. When she came to him,she smiled and said hi. Her beautiful smile was back, Brandon said hi back. "I'll wait for u,Janice."Brandon said. "Why? We are just friends,forever."Janice asked. Forever. The word went into his ears,ran down his spine and stabbed through his heart. "Because I really like you. Is there another reason?"Brandon asked. "There is someone else and I really like him. He's special to me. Please don't wait for me anymore." Janice finished her sentence and walked away. Brandon grab her arm and told her not to go,not to leave him just like that. She said sorry and pushed his hand away, made her way to her class. He could feel that her eyes were cold, not the friendly Janice, he felt shameful standing there like a lonely boy who has been left behind. He watched her walked away until out of sight, he couldn't forget her. He wished there was a hole for him to hide, cry as loudly as he could, let the pain to fade away. I know who is he, I hate him, he whispered. Janice ran away from his gaze every time he looked at her and she didn't reply his message anymore as if she didn't know him. That night, he shifted his gaze upwards to the sky, tears ran down from the corner of his eye. The last thing he could do was to pray the God that Janice would be happy. He knew there was no other space for him to enter her heart, he was not the one for her.

That's why I'm not happy

After I took my pmr result, I thought I would feel happy. But,I just felt slightly happy. After a few days, my smile faded away because it didn't change anything, it didn't change my life. I still need to move on,every single thing doesn't change, it didn't change my parents' opinion bout me. They show sour face every day, so did I. I thought they would be proud of me, give me a hug or let me know that I'm great. But,they just acted as if nothing happen. They knew my result and oohed, just like that, no face expression or action. I nodded and walked away. I lost my mood today, sat on the sofa like a doll, expressionless and my mind was blank. I couldn't believe after I did everything, study every day to aim for the best result just to let them know I can do it, I'm smart as my sister and I'm not a failure,but they didn't appreciate my effort. When I was in the car, I looked outside the window, staring at the blue sky and told myself that I want freedom, just freedom. Hot tears wanted to slip out from my eyes, I tried to blink back my tears, but they streamed down my face in the end. I closed my eyes, trying not to think anything, I didn't want any tears to stream down my face because I felt embarassing crying infront of my family. I turned my face to the left side, hiding my tears from them. Once I stepped out from the car, I wiped away my tears and looked at the windshield, made sure my eyes didn't look red and swollen. I walked along the empty street, the cold wind blew against me, I felt cold and lonely. I brushed back my hair, fought the urge to cry and moved on. When a car passed away, I had the urge to run across the road and I wished the car would hit me. But, I couldn't do it because it was stupid. My parents tried to talk to me, but I didn't bother to reply them, I was extremely sad, I had no voice to talk anymore. Well, my parents didn't care bout me too, they told me not to go out,just stay at home forever. I asked my mum for panadol because I felt dizzy, she said she didn't has it and told me not to go out anymore. I felt hurt when she showed me that she didn't care at all. I followed them, walked behind them slowly, my head hung down, I didn't want to look at them. I clenched my fist tightly, swallowed the lump in my throat, blinked back my tears and I told myself that I wanted to be strong. My head suddenly feel dizzy, I clamped my hand over my forehead, my view was blurry. I dropped to my knees and closed my eyes, I wanted to faint. A part of me wanted to faint, a part of me wanted to be strong and stand up. I took a gulp of water which comforted me and I didn't feel dizzy anymore. This isn't me, I usually walk fast, chin held high and show my confidence to the people surrounding me. But, I lost my confidence now, I felt weak because nobody will stay by my side to support me anymore. I'm tired of crying...

Pmr result!

When I stepped in the school, I felt nothing. I didn't realize today is the day. I went straight to SPBT room and did my work. When teacher said it was time to get PMR result, I still sat on my chair and kept on doing my work. After I've done my work, I got to my feet and head on to the hall. I could everyone was nervous, prayed for good result, afraid to take a step forward to the hall. I saw a girl sitting beside me prayed hardly for good result. I was afraid that she might burst into tears! When everyone queued to get their result, I saw some students hooping up and down, while some students burst into tears. Anyway, there was some people was shocked too, couldn't believe what they got. When teacher called my name,I just stepped forward and smiled. I knew what's my result when teacher said congratulation. I got 8A! I said yay and just walked away! Haha! I guess Xing Yee saw my reaction. LOL! After that, we went to Mcd for lunch and Giraffe bought BR for dessert! Thanks loh! We went to Jie's house to eat BR and watch Singapore movie. Anyway, nice water!!! Haha! Congratz to every form 3 students!!!

Falling in love with a friend

May and Patrick used to be best friends, but time changed everything. The path changed, so did their friendship. Patrick's house was just a stone threw away from May's house. He always go to her house since they were young. He couldn't live without May,so did May. They walked to school hand in hand every morning, although they were just friends. It became their habit, people around them were gossiping bout them, but they didn't bother at all. They were just like twins, they'll never leave each other arm. They sat on the same row at class, sat together at the canteen, ate together, laughed together and shared everything. When they grew up, Patrick had a girlfriend. May thought Patrick will leave her, but he didn't. She thought he will spend his time being with his girlfriend, but he didn't. He was still the same old Patrick. May also wanted to have a boyfriend, so she had a relationship with someone. When Patrick knew bout her relationship, he was shocked, he felt a twinge of nerves, a weird feeling began to rise in his body. He was afraid that May wouldn't hang out with him anymore, he was afraid that May will just talk to her boyfriend most of the time, but she didn't. Instead she talked to Patrick most of the time although she had a boyfriend. They were still best friends, their friendship never change. After a few months, May's boyfriend began to feel impatient and mad because May was never been there when he wanted to see her. He knew May was staying with Patrick. So, he decided to break up with her. May cried, she knew it was her fault, she knew it was wrong to be with Patrick all the time. But, she couldn't leave him. She stood outside in the cool night, watching the dark sky with sparkling stars hanging in the sky. She didn't feel alone after her boyfriend left. This feeling was wrong,indeed. She wanted to beg for forgiveness, she wanted to feel sad, she wanted to hate herself for being selfish. But, she didn't. In fact, she felt happy that she was single now, escaping from the jail. She rose to her feet, and ran, ran towards Patrick's house. She knew what to do, she knew what she wanted. When she arrived at the door, clicked open the doorknob, she saw Patrick and his girlfriend stood at the living room. His girlfriend's eyes were cold, patrick's head hung down, she could feel the atmosphere was cold and awkward, angel filled the room. There was a fight. Patrick's girlfriend slapped his face, May's eyes wide opened. "How could you do that to me? I'm your girlfriend,not May! You belong to me. Why you keep being with her?"she said through gritted teeth. "I'm sorry. She's my best friend, I can't lose her. We are done." Patrick replied. "No,she's not your best friend. You like her. I hate you treating me like this. You suck!" "Yes,I need to admit that I like her. I know I'm being a total jerk. But,I love being with her not you. I'm sorry." May shriek and covered her mouth with her hands. They gazed at her, the atmosphere became more awkward. May ran outside, ran along the road with confusion and shock. She heard footsteps behind her, she heard someone was calling her and that was Patrick. He pulled her to a halt. She turned to look at his face, she saw his face is blushing, so did she, she felt her cheek was burning. "Why did you run?"Patrick asked. "I was shocked. I don't know how to react. Do you mean what you said to her just now? Or it was just a joke? I'm confused. I thought we are best friends." May said. " Yes,we are. I mean it,May. It's true. I want to be with you." Patrick held her hands. May smiled and entered his open heart, their friendship was over,but they moved into a special and happier relationship life.

Gathering with my primary school friends at pyramid (12/12/2010)

I had a great day with Wan Jun,Yi Yuan, Yeo Rhey, Pei En, Juvi, Edwin and Zheng Hao. I really miss them a lot after separate for 3 years. Yeo Rhey's hair is super duper long, she looks like a Rapunzel! A beautiful Rapunzel! Haha! Wan Jun still looked the same, cute! Zheng Hao is freaking tall, I don't like to stand beside him which makes me look like a tiny ant. Yi Yuan, Pei En and Yeo Rhey grew taller. Oh god! I was taller than them last time. Now, I'm shorter. Pity me. We went to Kim Gary for lunch. We talked bout our life, school life, love life and much much more. After that, they went for movies, Narnia. While I went to look for Mei Yee! I disturbed her for 1 hour and 30 minutes. Haha! After movies, we went to play snooker. Zheng Hao seemed like he really like to play snooker. Juvi and Yi Yuan looked cute when they played snooker. Wan Jun went to buy sweets. I went to buy bubble tea and saw Pei Ling! I really miss you all a lot, I am looking forward to the next gathering! ^^ Keep in touch!

Girl's jealousy

Grace had a handsome boyfriend,Joe. He had a pair of brown eyes, brownish hair, 185 cm tall, sharp chin and long eyelashes. While Grace was freaking pretty which made boys fall for her. She had a perfect body, fit, sweet eyes, sexy lips, tanned legs and fair skin. They were a perfect couple in everyone's eye. They always hang out with their best friend, which they love to do. Grace's best friend, Brenda loved to stick with Joe. He was her best friend, they loved to talk to each other, shared their secrets and sat together. Brenda felt comfortable when she was with Joe, she liked him a lot as friend. She was getting on Grace's nerves, since Joe was her boyfriend, not Brenda's. Although Grace's heart felt uncomfortable, but she never spit it out, she didn't want to get into any trouble. It was better to act as if nothing happened. But when time passed, her patience faded away. She felt she was not his girlfriend anymore, Brenda replaced her. She knew Joe was being natural when he was with Brenda, he told her everything, didn't left out a word. When Joe was standing in front of Grace, he felt awkward and he was afraid to take action, which made Grace felt awkward too. Things were getting weirder, Grace thought. Maybe worse. They were no longer a sweet couple as everyone said. It was just a name, couple. When Brenda was talking to Grace, Grace didn't want to listen, she was mad, expressionless. Sometime, she just oohed and walked away. Brenda asked her what happened, she just smiled, speechless. Brenda knew something was going on, but she didn't knew that it was her fault. Although Grace said nothing, but she said:"You bitch! Leave me alone, leave him alone, he's mine, don't you know? He likes me,not you." in her heart. Grace hated Brenda, maybe, but she didn't want to hate her, Brenda was her best friend. But, how could she took away Joe from Grace? Grace didn't want to talk to her, she hated talking with her, it was a waste of time. Maybe it was stupid to hate a friend because of a boy. But, Grace loved him so much, he was belong to her, he should be with her, not Brenda, he should talk to her, he should just smile at her, he should tell her everything. "How can you forget bout me?"she asked him in her mind. She wanted to tell Brenda that she was jealous, but she didn't have the courage since Joe treated her as his best friend. Whenever she saw Brenda stood a feet away from Joe, she would keep looking at them, paid every attention on them to make sure nothing happen between them. She didn't want any sparks happen between them, she hoped Brenda could stay away from him, stay away the hell from him. There was a line between them, blocking them, made sure they wouldn't cross the line. When Joe was talking to Brenda and left Grace a side, Grace wanted to cry so badly in front of him, but she fought the urge and slowly backed away. She was back to her lonely world again. She ran, ran to a place to hide, hoped nobody would find her. But, she hoped Joe would follow her and pull her back in his arm, hug her tightly. In fact, he never did that, he never care bout her feelings, he didn't understand her. She dropped to her knees, placed her head on knees and cried, she hoped Joe would hand her a piece of tissue and tell her he love her. Unfortunately, she knew she was alone, because there was Brenda stood beside him, he would never notice Grace. Grace wished she'd never know Brenda, she wanted her to get out of her life, she just wanted to be with Joe, that's all what she wanted, was it so difficult? Why Brenda wanted to split them? Why? Her presence made Grace suffered. Friends could share everything, but not boyfriend.

Boy's jealousy

Jonathan began to realize that his heart is filled with jealousy. He met a girl, Melinda in his secondary school, they studied in the same class. He was so excited when he found out that he could study with her at the same time. He liked Melinda a lot, so did everyone. Melinda was a popular queen at school, boys were falling from the tree for her. When he saw Melinda was chatting with the boys and smiling at them, he felt his heart ached. His face immediately fell, maybe he was jealous. Melinda was a honey, the boys were the bees. They would stick to her everywhere and every time. They were like bodyguards trying to protect her from sudden attack. In fact, Jonathan was left behind in the queue, he felt depressed because he knew Melinda wouldn't fall for him. He tried every opportunity to talk to her, but hid body will begin to tremble when he approached her, sweats were dripping over his nose. When the seat beside her was empty, he had the rush to step in front and sit next to her. Before he made the move, other guy appeared on the seat already. Watching them giggling and talking to each other, he had the urge to push that guy away and tell him that the seat was belong to him. Of course he wouldn't do that, he just watched them with a pang of jealousy and sighed. During recess, he punched the wall for being such a coward. What else he could do,what a stupid guy, there's no need to hurt himself. 3/7/2010 08:45:50, he remembered the date, the time, the minute and the second so well because miracle happened. Melinda wanted to borrow his workbook, he stared at her eyes in disbelief, then his head hung down, his eyes were fixed on the ground, his hands were trembling, his foot were frozen, he couldn't move. "Jonathan?",Melinda called his name. "Er,yeah?",Jonathan said. " Didn't you hear what I said just now?" "Oh! I did. Erm, here it is."Jonathan handed the workbook. Melinda said thank you and smiled. He smiled back. That was the first time she smiled at him. "oh god! I can't breathe!",he thought. His heart was thumping fast, he felt dizzy that he almost faint, butterflies were flying above his head. He put his chin on his hand, he could only see her in his eyes from the distance, not allowed anybody to go in. "Gosh, you're beautiful."he whispered. He looked like a pervert or an idiot sitting on his chair, his mind was somewhere else, not in the class for sure. He closed his eyes, smiling stupidly, imagining something. What a freak. He wanted to post: "Melinda talked to me in my class! I mean ours!" in facebook. But, if he post this, he would be killed by millions of bees. He hate those bees. He wanted to be a flower that had the most handsome and protective petals, so that Melinda as the honey could stay in his heart and he wanted to protect her from those bees

A person who called "friend"

A friend will always stay by your side,not your lover. You should know that,it's common sense. Casy had a close friend, Jason. He was two years older than her,but they remained they remained their good friendship. It's very difficult to have a friend that treats you well. Jason treated Casy like a younger sister, he cared bout her, talked to her everyday, sms her every night, shared happiness and sadness with her and he would try to make her smile when she was sad. But, that friendship was a past tense, it had gone. Casy liked him very much, he was a good guy, a diamond in the sea. She almost fall for him because he was the only person who cared bout her. Until one day, Jason had a girlfriend, he told Casy how happy he was to has a first relationship. He always tell her bout their dates, their sweet relationship, he totally out of his mind, he never talked bout Casy. After a few months, Casy didn't receive any news bout him, she didn't receive his message. When she messaged him, he didn't reply at all. Jason didn't bother her anymore,she was out of the line, there was only his girlfriend in his heart. Casy cried every night because of him, she didn't like to talk after that. She felt alone without his presence. When Jason broke up with his girlfriend, he felt awful and upset. He went back to Casy,he told her everything bout his broke up. Casy didn't blame him, in face she encourage him to go on. They became close to each other again, closer than the past. Unexpectedly, he found another girl after few months. Casy thought he will change, but he didn't change at all. Once again,he left her. If I were Casy, I will never treat Jason as a friend. Jason just used her, he wanted somebody cared bout him, he didn't want to feel lonely, so he went back to her. Friend will never leave you, but your lover does.

Best Friends

You are the soul in my heart,
make my heart beats every minute,
refuse to stop with you by my side.

Cross the bridge together,
hand in hand walk along the path.
Rise our head,
gaze the cotton candy in the sky.

Whispering at my ear,
laughter echo in my eardrum.
Notice every grin and swollen eye.
You throw away my sadness,
create smile in my life,
happiness enter my heart,
when you hold my hand.

Eating ice cream with delight,
sweetness lying on the tongue,
breaking into a sudden grin,
and that's the way we look.

When your mouth move up and down,
every single word locks in my brain and in my heart.
Secrets share on the phone,
others echo in the air.

Wind can't blow us away,
we share our hearts,
forward every step,
cross the river,
and never look back.

You are impossible to find

It's very difficult to find the right person in your life. You need to search it with all your efforts,with pleasure and hope. Somebody might not even find the right person in their life. Nick had many ex girlfriends in his life, none of them was his perfect lady. They wanted to be with him because he was rich and handsome, their heart jumped at first sight, he was gorgeous! His heart was empty now recently, single, and bored, but it was time for him to look for the right girl. That wonderful morning, the sun was rising over the horizon, birds were chirping on the trees, the sunlight shone upon him, made him awake to see the beautiful sun. The warm breeze was knocking on his door, when he stepped outside, the sun was smiling at him, he loved the fresh morning air. He took a deep breath and sighed, he decided to take a walk. Jogging made him felt better, the music in the phone made his eardrum vibrated, it was a good morning. He jogged until a halt when he saw a girl was standing by the roadside, she attracted him. Her long wavy hair tied back with a ponytail, she was holding a drawing book and a pencil, he realized she was drawing the scenery. His body forced him to make a move, he couldn't control himself. When he stood behind her, she turned to look at him curiously. "Who are you?",the girl asked. "She's beautiful",he thought. "Hi, I'm Nick. Are you drawing something? Can I take a look?",Nick asked."Yeah,sure." She handed him the drawing book."God,it's awesome! You love drawing. Are you an artist?" "Yeah.By the way,I'm Jerica." "I'm Nick. Nice to meet u" That day was the first day they met each other. Nick would never forget their conversation. After a month, Jerica fell for him, they were a couple. In Nick life,she was the most awesome person, he couldn't live without her, he never felt like this before, maybe this is called love. They went for movies, dinner in a fancy restaurant, played in the theme park, hand in hand walking down the street and shopping like most couples did. Nick did it for a thousands time, but he felt it was like the first date for him, the most memorable date. When he held her hand, he will held it tightly, he didn't want to let it go, she was belong to him only. He was the luckiest person in the world when he got to see her smile. When he came back from work, it was 11.40pm. He punched the password and stepped into his apartment, red wine, candle lights and lamb chop was placed nicely on the table. He saw Jerica was sleeping soundly on his sofa, she looked beautiful even when she was asleep. He brushed through her fringe and planted a kiss on her forehead. Jerica opened her eyes and saw Nick, she gave a smile and rub her tired eyes."You are back."Jerica said. "Yeah.What's this bout?"Nick pointed at the dining table. "Happy Birthday!" Jerica said and hugged him. "Oh my god! I forgot my birthday! How do you know today is my birthday?"Nick asked. " Well,I think you mum told me.Hah! Luckily,I remember it. If not you gonna be alone today." "Thanks!" Jerica hurried to the kitchen and took a cake out from the fridge. "I made this for you. You must eat it!" " Sure,I will. This is the first time you cook for me. How lovely!" Jerica fed him a piece of cake, that was the delicious food in the world for Nick. "Jerica, you are the most wonderful girl in the world. I can't leave you forever. My only wish is to be with you forever. Can't you promise me not to leave me?" "Yes! I promise you,Nick.I am yours." Jerica threw her arms around him, fresh tears sprang into her eyes. Nick had found the right person, he loved her so much.

You left me!

Alex had gone to America for 1 year,left Christine alone in her country. He left her nothing except a house and the sweet memories. In the dawn, Christine woke up when she felt nothing beside her on the bed. She rose to her feet and rushed down the stairs,she searched through the house and it was empty. She opened the closet and saw nothing. He left. She found a piece of paper on the table. He wrote: I'm sorry that I need to leave. We need to calm down for a while. I'm tired. Thanks for everything you did for me. Please don't be sad, I want you to go on and find your happiness. Your happiness is outside waiting for you. You need to find it! Promise me you will be happy forever. I love you, Christine. When she read until the end, she crumpled the paper and threw it into the dustbin. Hot anger tears streamed down her beautiful face like fountain. Her heart ached as if a knife stabbed into her heart. She cried non-stop, sat on the floor like a lonely girl, everyone left her, she was alone now. How could he left me without saying goodbye? How could he left me although he knew I love him so much?,Christine thought. She hated him that he left her but she love him,forever. She rushed to the dustbin and collected the paper back. He left this to her,she must keep it,she thought. He only left this paper, this house and memories. She wouldn't leave this house forever because too many sweet lovely memories were kept in this house. Although he was not here, but she could smell his scent, she could hear his voice, she could see his charming face too. She dreamed bout him every night, she dreamed the days she spent with him. Those were the most memorable days. She felt alone is this big house, her heart was empty when she slept in a queen bed with nobody slept beside her. When she turned to her right side, Alex was watching her, his blue eyes stared right into her brown eyes, and then he was gone. She smiled and fell asleep. When she went into the kitchen every morning, she would expect Alex had prepared breakfast for her, but the table was empty. She sighed,she missed his delicious cooking. Every morning she entered the kitchen, he would smiled at her and gave a morning kiss, he would pass her the coffee. Now,he's gone, nobody would prepare breakfast for her already. When the tv was on, her eyes were not focus on the tv screen, but elsewhere. She remembered Alex would her waist when they were watching tv. Now,she would hug herself as if Alex was hugging her. The rain was pouring on the empty streets, cold wind brushed through her face, gave her a chill, she hugged herself for comfort. She walked down the streets without an umbrella, she let the rain poured on her face, she was waiting Alex to hand her an umbrella,but there was nobody. She was crying, but the rain covered her tears. She still couldn't believe that he left her, she couldn't accept it as a fact, she hoped it was a dream.

I need trust!

Angel was just an ordinary girl. She didn't want fame or luxury, she just wanted trust. When she was a little girl, she trusted anyone because she didn't know anything outside the world, she was not mature yet. She thought the world had no harm, it was a peaceful world. Until one day,one of her best friend betrayed her, stabbed a knife into her heart. Her friend told her that she had been helping Angel's enemy. It was childish to have an enemy at this age. When you hate someone for no reason, that person became your enemy. Angel remained calm, acted as if nothing happen, she was deaf. After her friend told her, she smiled for no reason although her heart was aching. She wanted to scold her so badly, but she did nothing, stood there like a wood. A war is nothing better, it will just make things worse. If she scold her friend, they will become enemy, never be friends. Her friend betrayed her so many times, but Angel still didn't spit out her anger, she kept it in a heart forever. Sometimes,her friend won't talk to her, hate her, scold her for no reason,she bullied her. She knew her friend didn't treat her well, just knew how to get angry, but it was over,she thought. Since then, she didn't fully trust anyone. She was afraid to get hurt again. At home, she was invisible. Although she said the truth, but her family didn't trust her at all, they said she lies all the time. When they said that, the scar in her heart got deeper, she wanted to tell them it was true, but she knew it was useless, they wouldn't trust her anymore. Fight back was useless, she was tired. Her mother scolded her for not telling her anything bout her life. Angel didn't want to tell her because she remembered when she was young, she told her mother everything. But,her mother didn't let a word go into her ears and she didn't believe her too. Since then, whenever her mother asked her bout something, she just kept quiet, she was tired to speak. When other people did something wrong, her mother would scold her before reveal the truth. But, Angel didn't fight back, she clenched her fist and kept on doing her her work, she didn't want to listen a word anymore. Her mother wouldn't believe her no matter what she said. She fought the urge to cry although she wanted to cry so badly. When she was sad, she would lock her in her room, she wanted to be alone. But, her mother would scold her, her mother thought she did illegal stuff in her room. She didn't have privacy at home because her mother said she don't need privacy. It was insane and ridiculous,she thought. Whenever her family scolded her, she would fight back or keep quiet. Normally, she would choose not to fight back, she would rather carry all the stress and sadness than wasting her saliva. Her family hated her,she thought. There was no trust in her world,it was difficult to find someone that she could trust or trust her.

Celebrate Jo and Yee bday at Sunway Pyramid.

Happy Birthday to both of u!!! Both of you are old now! Kaka! We watched harry potter7 part 1 today. It was quite disappointed. I thought it'd be good since many people watched. We were the 1st to arrive at the cinema. Haha! It was quite spooky at first. We waited for so long,but nobody came in. Can you imagine you sit in the cinema alone? Someone is watching you..... We ate Pasta De Gohan for lunch. My stomach was quite full before that, I stuffed eveything into my mouth,slowly. Mei Yee! Why you gotta work? Duh! I need you! I miss you so much....LOL! Time went fast today! Afterthat, I really don't know what to say because I don't want to mention bout it.

The memorable midnight.

My name is Erica,I am 16 years old. Everyone has a happy life at this age, but not for me. I had breast cancer,wasn't it pity to have cancer at this age? I knew I was going to leave this world soon, I never felt sad, I never cried because my love on stayed with me. His name is David,17 years old. He was good-looking, tall, broad shoulders and caring. Unfortunately, he had tumor is his brain, he looked weak everyday, weaker than me. Everyone is this hospital was going to die soon, they knew it, they just kept on living, took in every breath, appreciate every moment. Why the God is so unfair? David had a girlfriend, Monica. She was beautiful like an angel, tall, blond hair, long eyelashes and a pair of sparkling eyes. She came to visit David once a week, it was so nice of her. She treated him nice every time she visited him, she fed him, talked to him, brought magazines and board games for him. She kept convinced herself that he will recover soon and he will go back to school with her, spend the rest of his life with her. Unexpectedly, David treated her coldly, he always show I-don't-need-you-to-take-care-of-me look. At least he said thank you, but I knew he was not interested on her. I had a group of friends in the hospital. We gathered around at night and told about our lives. David was the weakest in our group, I stole a glimpse at him to make sure he was fine. When it was almost late, I will drag him to his room, make sure he rested early. I didn't mind he had a girlfriend, I just wanted to take care of him before he left me, gave the best for him. Before I closed my eyes, I will imagine what will happen tomorrow, will I just fell asleep and never woke up? When I woke up in the next morning, I was glad that I could live one more day. I was glad the devil was not here to pick me up yet,it was not my time. At the 185th day, I saw Monica and David stood at the park,hand in hand. Suddenly, David let go her hand,I could see they were mumbling, but I couldn't catch up a word. Monica buried her face in her hands,I could hear her weeping in the morning breeze,echoed in the cold air. She ran out of the hospital until out of sight, but David didn't make a effort to grab her. I began to wonder and made my way towards him. He told me that they broke up, I just oohed, didn't want to question anything. I didn't know how to describe my feelings, was I sad or happy? I leaped out my words,I told him that I love him. He threw his arms around me and smiled charmingly. I love the way he smiled, I love the way he hugged me. I love this moment,nobody could take away from me. I could feel his weight on my shoulder lighten, he was much thinner than I thought, he looked pale, he couldn't live any longer. We sat on his bed that night,we talked about our feelings, hand in hand under the blanket, I'd never been so close to him. Suddenly, his eyes were locked in mine,we kissed,deep and long. He pulled away and caught for breath. He was so weak that he couldn't take it anymore."I love you,David",I whispered in the cold night. We closed our eyes and entered our sweet dreams. The next morning, I half opened my eyes,birds chirped in the warm breeze, trees swayed in the air. I looked to my right and saw David lie beside me. I touched his smooth pale skin and kissed lightly on his lips. He opened his eyes slowly, looked deep into my eyes, he smiled and return me a kiss. He brushed my fringe back to my ear and kissed my forehead. "I love you,Erica",he whispered through my ear. He closed his eyes and never open them,his pillow sink a little. That was the moment I knew he had gone. Tears began to stream down my face, I watched the nurses took away him from me. That day, I never spoke a word, I just stared blankly at the bare ceiling. I could feel his presence, I could smell his scent, I wanted to keep it,never let it go. That night was colder than others, it was so cold,I covered the blanket around me and hugged my knees. I began to feel tired and decided to lay down. Suddenly, I saw David appeared at the window,I miss his charming face, I miss his voice. I lifted my hand,tried to catch him. But,he had gone, he left me. I felt weak in a sudden, I fought the urge to lift my hand,but it went down,remained on the bed. My eyelids became heavier, I fought the urge to open my eyes, but it was so difficult. I decided to give up, I didn't want to struggle anymore and I closed my eyes. "I'm coming,David",I said in my heart.

Lonely girl left her world

Time flies like a rocket,I could feel the wind brushed through my face when time passed by me. The moment I turned my head,I couldn't see anything or hear anything. It just disappeared in a sudden, out of my sight, I would never feel it once again,this is how time flies. I couldn't stay in a place forever, things need to change, my life needs to change. I couldn't just stood there did nothing and watched the time flew. I needed to make a move. Everything around me had moved it's position. Their shadows flashed across my eyes so fast that I couldn't see what they did. I clenched my fist, my head started to spin, butterflies were flying in my stomach, I felt sick and I wanted to throw everything out. In a place that was not belong to me, I felt uncomfortable. I didn't feel safe with the atmosphere surrounded me. It was not warm, it gave me a chill. I dropped to my knees and hugged myself for comfort. My tooth were chattering, body trembled, stomach churned and eyes filled with fear. Suddenly, I fell to the ground with a thud. I was so tired, my eyelids were so heavy which forced my eyes to close. I rested my brain, entered my dream and didn't know what happened next. When I woke up from my dream, I was in my bed, I had no idea how I got into my bed. I startled and immediately rose to my foot,made my way down the stairs and saw nobody in the house. I just wanted to leave this world,go to the other world which belongs to me and start a new life. I wanted freedom,that's all. I packed my bag,stuffed everything into it. When I stepped outside,I could feel the warm breeze and saw the light coming out from the tunnel,it will direct me to a new world. But,my heart was hammering in my chest, my stomach churned hard,I tighten my grip to fight the pain. My heart beat faster, up and down, I placed my left hand on my chest,tried to grip my pounding heart. The weight on my shoulder became heavier, I let out a deep sigh and swallowed the lump in my throat. A little girl with her hair tied back with a ponytail was hopping around as if her dress caught on fire. She had a big grin on her face, her cheek was red, she was so cute,I thought. She noticed that I looked at her, so she looked at me curiously. She waved at me and gave me a smile,I smiled back. She stepped in the train with her hand held her mother's hand. I looked down at my foot and made the first step to the train. The door closed behind me,just in time. I looked back and told myself that I would never come back. I let my tears fell to the empty ground and loosen my grip. Everything will be different from now on. The train screamed and entered the light.

People can change

When we were young, we could live happily whenever we want. There was no worries,no hatred,no jealousy and no pain. We could make friends easily by just saying hi to each other. And shot a smile,that's all,we started to be friends. Things went well until high school. We become mature, know the world well, our wings started to spread out and fly to the blue sky. During the first year of high school, there was an odd feeling, we couldn't fit into the new atmosphere. It was like wearing a new shirt which is not comfortable at first. I'll always remember the 1st day at high school. I sat at the end of the class. Well,my close friend sat beside me,we kept talking and gossiping. I looked around the class, looked at those students in the class. Those girls sat at the corner looked at me suspiciously. We introduced to each other and we just sat together. Of course,we knew each other deeper and got closer to each other. I love the moments we spend time together. I flipped through the photo album when I was free. Memories flashed back in my brain. Photos of my primary school friends were placed nicely in the photo album. I placed my right hand on the plastic which covered the photos. I was thinking, it'd be good if I could fly back to the past,I'll appreciate the moments and keep in mind forever. I'll use all my efforts to make the days go well. Their smiles were framed in the photo album, I could hear them laughing happily, laughing at each other' jokes. Girls held hands together, boys patted at each other' back. When I closed the photo album, their beautiful voice began to fade away, I raised my hand to catch it back,but it was useless,of course. They were leaving me, left me alone in the dark. I buried my face in my hand,I fought the urge to cry because I wanted to be tough. I'm a tough girl,I'm strong,I told myself. I used to smile often,but my smile had faded away in the cold air. It was difficult to smile nowadays since my life was filled with worries, disappointment, sadness and devils. People could change anytime and anywhere. Some people were friendly at first,you could see their angels' wing at their body, white crown on their head, beautiful and charming smile hung on their face. They were willing to help you anytime. They will support you when you need them. When time went on, they will change. They will become a different person who you doesn't know at all. A friend of yours become a stranger in a sudden,it'll freaks you out for sure. Some friend of yours could backstab you without your notice. You will be wondering why they did that to you. Some people could also treat you coldly,not that "hot" as they did before anymore. They won't talk to you,laugh at your jokes,don't want to look into your eyes or stare at you coldly. You might be sad,but what to do? Since they treat you in the different way,you couldn't make them to treat you well anymore because they already change. The atmosphere change,so do them. Some people which were hyper could become emo too. Emo people are useless! Emo people don't have a life because they just know how to be emo. The reasons they became emo mostly was because of love. They lost their love ones. Their love ones doesn't love them. Actually,we don't need to emo when we can't get their heart, we might be sad but we need to move on. Although the atmosphere, surrounding, friends, family, lovers, places, interests, attitudes and appearances change, we still need to move on. Ignore the changes or just follow the changes. Everyone would change after all, this is called humanity.

Wait for me

This is a rule. Joseph has to obey it. Joseph is with Janey. Well,is "was" actually. Maybe they are over,maybe. The rule is couple is not allowed. Joseph has to attend an event soon and that's the rule. What a stupid rule,he thought. He didn't want to follow the rule,but it's a must. He screamed after he flipped through the pages. He was struggling how to explain to Janey. He didn't want to lose her,but he must obey the rule. That night,the room was dark and quiet. His brain was filled with question marks and brain cells pulled each other made his head exploded. It was a different night. A nightmare. The next day,he searched his guts to tell her. Finally,he did on the phone. His voice was up and down when he told her. There was a silence between them. He wanted her to just be friends for this period. For just a moment. After a long dead silence,she finally said okay although she didn't want. He knew that too from her voice. She sounded sad and depressed. "I'm sorry,love."he muttered."It's okay.I love you."Janey said. And,they hung up. They sighed after the line went dead. Hot tears laid on her eyelashes and eventually rolled down her cheek. She wiped away the hot tears but more tears rushed down. She buried her face in her hands,sit on the chair alone, her weeping sound echoed in the room. Joseph hoped Janey won't cry,but he could hear from a distance. He buried his face in the pillow,covered his tears. He hoped she could wait for him. He couldn't wait to be with her again. He wanted to talk to her, hold her hands, hug her and look at her smile. He loves her smile,he loves her so much.. The sweet memories kept flashing in his brain. It's good to keep the sweet memories,he didn't want them to fade away. This is the best memories,he thought. "Please wait for me,my love."Joseph whispering in the air.

Try to let him go

Sandy is just an ordinary girl,a human. She has a brownish long hair,not short and not tall,has a pink cheek and she has a fair skin that everyone admires. Although she is not popular,but she always hang a smile on her face. But,when she is angry or not in a mood, earthquake happens,building crashing and falling to the ground.Everyone shocked to death. LOL! Well,she fall in love with someone in a sudden. She don't know why that guy could attract her without doing anything. When she first met him,she didn't feel anything, just treat him as a normal friend. But when time passed,her heart started to beat up and down in a fast movement when she saw him. She always steal a glance at him whenever he stands in her area. When he turns his head,she will immediately turn her head,eyes move to another side which is away from him. She'll start to blush and her cheeks suddenly feel hot. God,I'm in love with him,she thought. She sacrifice so much of time just because of him, she waits for him, waits for him to reply. She wants a positive answer from him,but he did nothing. He just sit there and do him own thing. What a jerk! Is it? Whatever! Tears flow down her cheeks most of the time,her eyes swollen and red,the pain the heart will never cure,her heart aching as if someone stab a knife into her heart. Of course she wants to cure her pain, but it is difficult to forget someone who she loves so much. She felt dumb,stupid and useless. It is a stupid decision to wait for a guy who doesn't like me,she thought. If he likes me,he would make a move at first,he won't left her in the dark. But,he left her in the dark, he just ignore her. She doesn't want anyone to give her hope anymore because there is no hope. There is no need to wait for him. Actually,he's a good guy,but he is just not that into me,Sandy thought. She hopes her friends will understand what she wants,support her forever, give her the strength to move on. Other people can move on,why can't she? She had decided,she'll move on as everyone does,forget the past,search for future and forget the love. She'll let him go,just to be his friend.

Appreciate your love ones

Have you ever wondering your love ones will stay by your side forever? Will they support and love you forever? There is no doubt that people will worry about their love life.We found our crush,couple,married,gave birth and died. This is our life,we can't run away from that. We think bout it,we try to ignore what will happen next, we just walk along our road. Everyone might worry bout their love ones will leave them. We know they will leave us one day, we just hope it will not happen too soon. How can you be so confident when you almost lost your love ones? What if he/she found the better person, the better place or the better life? Use all your effort to catch them, to lock them, make sure they stay by our side, make sure they won't leave us, make sure we won't let go their hands. Once you let go,they will never come back. they won't go back to the past, they will just go on to start a new life. You might want to live in the past, you want to keep the sweet memories, you want to be with them, but they might not because you let them go once. They are afraid that you might hurt them once again, so they decided to leave you. So, don't ever hurt your love ones, don't ever do mistakes, do everything to make them happy. Although he/she is with you now, but once you ignore her or do a mistake, she/he will let you go. If you really love them, please do something better to win her/him back, the people surrounding them would take away them from you. From now on, you must spend most of your time to be with them,talk to them, express your feelings towards them, take care of them and love them with all your heart.

Class Party at Sunway Pyramid

I knew we'll split. But,it was okay. We ate pizza hut again! Actually,we wanna eat korean street cafe,but we ate 2 times already,so we decided to make a change. Kesian Mei, her leg hurt again. She is in a bad luck day now. We must pray for her loh. We watched "Let Me In". It's a vampire show. But,the vampire is a small little girl. I was wondering,this movie is a romance movie or horror movie? The most of them is romance. There was kissing everywhere. Two little kids pressing their lips each other. Yucks! They are too young! I felt gross when I saw the girl kissed the boy after she sucked a person's blood,not on the cheek,is on the lip! Yucks! I'll vormit if I were the boy. By the way,I wore short pants and a short sleeve shirt. Gosh! It was freaking cold. My foot were frozen,I had to lift my leg up. Actually,I didn't focus on the movie.It was freaking boring! I didn't know what was the main point,I didn't know what were they talking bout. But,I know it was a vampire movie. Everyone kept talking when the movie was on. Haha! Anyway! I just paid 6 dollar. Who cares? Today was the last day! I gonna miss Puan Hanor and 3 Baktians. I love you all...

Genting trip with my lovely friends(6-7 nov)

I couldn't sleep the day before went to genting because I was worrying bout something important. I laid on the bed for 7 hours doing nothing except opened my eyes and closed my eyes again,forcing me to enter the dream. But,it failed. When I saw the blue sky,I knew it was time to wake up. I was excited because I did not need to waste time to wait already.On the other hand,I was worried too,I guess my friends know the reasons. Fortunately, everything was fine.Phew! We cheered afterthat! Haha..Ohya,we forgot to bring champagne. I was extremely exhausted,but I managed to open my eyes. Haha! Mei Yee almost slept beside me. She almost froze to death. She should bring 4 jackets,but she didn't. Duh! Anyway,it was almost late when we reached there. People walked around like millions of ants running around to search for food. I was lucky when I was playing the "flying boat" because the little cute girl didn't sit behind me! If not,my eardrum will burst! Haha..Kesian ming....Anyway, 6 games for 44 bucks!!! It was a waste,man! My money flew away..T.T Haiz..Forget bout it la. I want to go again!!! I thought I prayed the God,hoped it wouldn't rain tat day,but water dripping on the floor the whole night. Ming,Jo,Yee & Mei!!! Stop forcing me to eat la! Haha! It was just a muffin! Share la! Share is caring! Mei,just throw that piece of chicken into ur mouth la,don't need to use fork and knife la since it was so difficult. Aiyo! I missed ice cream. I didn't eat at all! Sei leng lui and those 2 little girls didn't belanja me! I won the most leh!! You owe me! Remember it. Stupid giraffe topless after bathed. Why don't you naked? Since it was windy. Air-dry,.hor??? I think the bodyguard will remember our pretty face because we used the lift for hundreds of time. We went up and down,people around there shot a curious look to us. Maybe they thought youngsters nowadays are insane. Ohya,I won't forgot that kid! Haha! We forgot to say bye to that kid la. That night was freaking cold. Mei yee took 3 quarter of the blanket. I was giggling almost the whole night,tooth clenching,hands clenching into fists,muscle struggling to form heat inside my body and my foot rubbed against each other. Thanks to ming,jo and yee because they woke up. So,everyone also woke up. I rose to my feet to reach for my towel and covered it over my body. Jie Jie really slept well,I could hear the breathing sound. We were so lucky to sleep on the bed. The others really stupid la because they chose to sleep on the floor..Kaka! Was it fun to sleep on the floor.I wished I could step on the 2 little"girls". Jie Jie is the "rampas blanket queen" la! Haha! Kesian them. Afterthat,we slept again. Mei yee opened her eyes at 7.15a.m. I looked at the window,blue sky appeared. I decided to wake up then. Mei yee and I whispered all the way to the bathroom. We didn't want to wake them up because they hardly slept. When we opened the tap water,we also need to close the door. Unfortunately, they woke up too. I guess yee already froze to death because she was sitting on the cushion,she didn't expect that way will be worse than sleeping on the floor. I have a habit that is I won't use hair dryer after bathe. I'll just let it air-dry,let the water evaporated by the air,disappeared into the atmosphere. So,giraffe,don't force me to rub my hair la,If you want my hair to be dry,rub it yourself la.I want to play my cards la.Haha! Ming,I love to bully Jo,the tigress leh. Let's bully her again! Jo,I want that spongebob' butt! It's square! LOL!  I think Yee can act as a ghost. She sat on the cushion in the middle of the night. When I opened my eyes,I saw a black shadow at the corner. At 1st,I wondered what was that,then I looked deeper.Owh,It was Xing Yee,then I continued to sleep again. We had cup mee for breakfast on the 2nd day. I ate kimchi mee. It was kinda spicy. We played cards again in the morning....3 of YOU OWE ME!!! U all really played the basketball until SIAO already. I almost lost my voice after sitting the roller-coaster. I shouldn't have scream so much. Jie jie must be thought that we were annoying. The wind almost killed me,gosh! It was so strong,almost blew my head off. Luckily,I didn't tie my hair,if not I will just locked myself in the room. Hey! Don't simply say hi to people la.It's weird because I didn't know you at all. I miss that giraffe monkey and that fat monkey! Haha! I want to visit them. I missed this trip! LET'S GO AGAIN!

Confusing

Sam really didn't know what she wants. Sometime,she talked to him. Sometime,she didn't even bother to look at him.What happened to her? He was worried bout her,he wished she could tell him everything,he didn't want to be kept in the dark. When her name popped out in the computer screen, he made a grin,his heart flew. He double-clicked the small screen below,started to focus on her display name and personal message. Question mark flew into his brain cells. He didn't understand what was she typing about most of the time. He wished to get an answer from her.But,he just didn't have that courage to type the words out..He looked at the screen for a long time and thought what to type. At least,he could say hi to her,but it might look weird. Gosh,he was useless,he thought."Why I have to be such a coward?"he said. He searched her profile in facebook immediately when he clicked the facebook website. He saw her photo,looked deeper into her photo,he loved the way how she looked,he loved the way how she post. She's freaking pretty. She's my angel,Sam thought. He saw her status and immediately typed something.It was easier because it gave a topic to him.In a few minutes,she replied. He was excited at first,but his shoulder weight a ton in the end. She sounded like she wanted him to go away. Was she mad bout him? He wanted her to feel happy,that's all! He didn't want her to be sad and furious. Sam knew he was useless,he couldn't do anything for her. He wanted to change for her."I'm sorry!"he whispered...

How could he did that to me?

My dad threw my Chace Crawford's poster into the dustbin without my permission! How could he? It's Chace Crawford!!! What if it's Kris Allen? Oh gosh,u can't imagine what I'll do. I love Kris Allen so much,he's my soulmate! Haha.. Why he always touch my things without my permission,in fact he threw it! This is not the 1st time. I guess he threw alot of my things..My things had gone...T.T  Now,my cupboard is empty,just left empty space..Haiz..I really don't like my family touch my things without my permission. It's a crime if they do that! I need privacy too,ok? I'm a human,not a prisoner. Where I want to put my things,that's my decision,just let it be. I'm really sick of this!

Just hope to see you again

A flock of birds flew across our heads,leafs swung according the music,the Sun shone rose from the horizon,shone upon us, form shadows everywhere. Dan saw her shadow moved towards the office,he tracked her,wanted to know where she was. He lifted his head to search her and continued to listen his friend mumbling at his ears. None of the words entered his eardrum,in fact it reflected out in the air. He just nodded while his friend was mumbling. He saw Lace smiled at her friend,mouth was moving up and down,her hands waved front and back,her long wavy hair laid on her shoulder. She was perfect,he thought. He wanted her for the rest of the life. And,he smiled although nobody was smiling at him. He looked like an idiot,he thought,but he didn't care. The wind blew her hair,caused her long wavy hair to flew backwards,her fringe brushed against her small face and she struggled to comb her hair,she hoped her hair wouldn't be a mess.The wind also wanted to feel her smooth face and kissed her on her cheek.  In a few seconds,she disappeared from his view,made her way to her class. He missed that moment and his only wish is to see her again.

Baskin Robbin Day!

Oh gosh! I couldn't believe that I waited for 1 hour just to buy baskin robbin' ice cream! Anyway,It was extremely delicious! I love it1 I bought winter white chocolate and chocolate mousse royale! Haha! When I stepped in,there were hundreds of people waiting at the counter. But,who cares? I just wanted to eat that ice cream! Ice cream lights up my mood. My sadness will go away when I put the spoon in my mouth,filled my mouth with ice cream,cooled the nerves...I love desserts! Sry,Jun! Don't bu shuang ar...I'll belanja u if u belanja me 1st! ^^

"She" is my fren!

Actually,"she" is a good friend of mine. In other people eyes,"she" might be not their good friend.For me,"she" is different. "She" is not good looking,extremely skinny,has a small head,no fat at all,just skins and bonesm, has a nice hand writing,impressing..haha. "She" is evil sometime,annoying and stupid. "She" never thinks before speak,and then "she" hurts many people by using her mouth. Once her mouth opened,"bang"! Many people kena shot by her. So pathetic! Besides that,once "she" swayed her hand,it hurt many people Their bones cracked,veins pulled and screamed. "She could make people hate her,maybe forever..Just kidding! This is not the real her. "She" is nice,actually. Maybe when you see this sentence,you'll laugh!haha..nice?? my god? Is sher fern insane? Lol...When I first met her, I didn't bother her,I didn't care bout her,I just treat her as my classmate.Haha! Don't be mad! Honestly,I didn't like u when I'm form 2. "She" was really annoying! "She" was so cold! So evil! I hate that she-is-going-to-kill-me look! I'll remember that! Haha! Afterthat,"she" changed alot especially this year! It was a good new! Haha! The new her! I love it! "She" started to become funny as my malau! Stupid malau teach her! "She" started to be caring,erm..friendly? Opps! Anyway,her mouth is still sharp, bones are strong,thick and still thin as well....But,"she" turn over a new leaf! When I was sad,"she" will made me smile,made me think positive. I was shocked that "she" will care bout me? Maybe? Am I think too much? Ohya! We talked more to each other compared to last year! I know her better now. But,I really hate it when "she" touched my face and hit my head! I hate it! So,stop it please. Anyway,"she" is my friend! I wrote bout her because I was chatting with her.Haha! I just want to let people know that "she" is good inside. Tips for her= Don't hurt people by using ur mouth and ur hands again!

Our Class( Part 2)

Yeah,John confessed to Kate. Kate was in a bad mood that time. So,she didn't give any reaction,she just said:"Oh,I know"! John was upset,he almost cry,but he fought to urge to cry,he didn't want her to know that he was upset. So,he just put a smile face. Well,he knew that she was a cold-blooded person,but he just love her. The next day,he walked past her,he was going to wave his hand,but she never looked at him,she focussed her eyes on the floor and made her way to the classroom. He felt the coldness,he looked at her back and watched her disappeared. He ran back and took her smooth hand. He asked her what happened.Kate pushed away his hand and told him not to bother her anymore. She wished that he could leave her alone. John began to shudder,he was afraid to lose her,forever. He wondered why Kate don't want to talk to him,did he annoyed her? Or she hate him? His brain was filled with question mark,sadness and pain. John wanted Kate back,he loves her eyes,her voice and her smile. He wanted to be a part in her life forever. Now,his heart was pale because Kate did not want to be a part in his life. Without her,he had no aim to live anymore....

She needs your help

Don't you know that her life is miserable and pathetic? You know it! But,you ignore! Why you left her alone? Do you know that she is waiting for you? You idiot! You want to help her,you want to lend your shoulder,but you didn't because you afraid that she might reject you..You are a coward,evil shameful guy! You loves her,you didn't tell her,but she knows. When her friends needs you,you go for them. When she needs you, you just stand there and do nothing. Her heart breaks,she wants to let you go,but she decides to give u one more chance again and again...Unfortunately,you make her down every time. She didn't spit it out, she kept it in her heart because she is afraid that you might be sad. Since you love her,why don't you tell her and let her know how you feel. Maybe she'll tell you the same thing too. At least you should take a chance,if not there'll be no chance for you next time. When you are regret,it's too late,because she'll never turn back. Appreciate the people you love and don't let them go...Spend more time to be with them,it's worth it.

Blur Boy

Girl A: I want a break!
Boy B: Why? How could you do this to me?
Girl  A: What are you talkin' bout??
Boy B:U say u want a break. Is it true?
Girl A: Yes! I'm tired! Can't u see?
Boy B:Ok,fine,then.Bye...
Girl A: Huh?
The next day...
Girl A: Hey! Let's go out!
Boy B: WTH! We just broke up!
Girl A: What? Since when?
Boy B: Yesterday! OMG! You are so old! How could you forget?
Girl A: (Slap him) Dude,I never say that and please don't blame me! You want to break up? Don't push everything to me! You idiot!
Boy B:(Slap her) Do I know you??

What a tiring day.

Oh God! There was lots of work to do in spbt room. My back was aching, my eyelids were heavy,almost fell asleeep. I almost faint,anyway. Maybe the reason was I only slept for 5 hrs,I skip my breakfast and I was so exhausted. Anyway,my work had done.Thx to Bee Ying and the prefects. But,I hope Pheng Sum'll shut his mouth,at least for 1 day. Damn,I know he won't. His mouth needs to open... Gosh,I need to make a decision. I afraid that I can't,because it's a tough decision...I don't wan to cause a "bomb",It's eerie....

Korean Street Food

The place was awesome! Haha. But,the food was not delicious. Anyway,we had fun! The 1st time I went with my frenz was fun. But,today I don't think it was that fun. I've no idea. I think I'm exhausted. Or maybe I was disappointed bout something. Haiz....Wateva. I think I'm a jerk! Anyway,I wrote something on the wall. Maybe u guys can look for it. Haha It's easy. I wrote my name on it. ^^

Our class

Kate sat beside John at their class. John fell madly in love with her,everyone in the class knows that,they heard the rumours. But, they'll never know whether Kate likes him or not. She'll just ignore them and do her own stuff. They were annoying actually,it freaked her out. John was good-looking,he was absent-minded when teacher was mumbling in front of the students because Kate was just sit beside him! Kate was pretty, the prettiest girl in school, there were hundreds of guys falling from the tree for her. Unfortunately,she rejected all of them. Maybe that was a good news for John, he knew he had a chance,he just knew it! He could feel it. The God bless him. He appreciated the time that they sat together,talked to each other and smiled to each other. He loved her smile,the sweetest smile ever. He wanted to framed her smile and kept it in his mind. He took a glance at her every minute,just wanted to make sure that she was fine. He wanted to know her better,deeper. So,he waited for the best time to confess. And,finally he did......
-To be continued-

Grr!

Oh My Gosh! Who sneaked my closet again??! Duh! Anger firing through Jane. "I know! It's her! It must be her!" she muttered. She stomped out and closed the door behind her. She ran down the stairs and stared at her sis. She stared deep into her eyes,never move an inch. "What? Don't give that look. Tell me what happen? You scared me." Brenda said. Jane wanted to sream aloud and slap her face so badly. She opened her mouth,but nothing came out. She preferred to keep quiet and act as if nothing happened,she don't want any incident happen between them. She's a coward,she thought. She climbed back to her room and close the door behind her,she wanted to be alone in her world. Brenda cocked her eyebrow and watched her disappeared from her view. Jane climbed to her knees, closed her face with her palms. Tears laid on her lower eyelashes and rolled her cheeks. She wiped away the hot tears and began to wonder why she had a sister,a horrible sister. She remembered that day, her sis told her that she knew all her secrets. Brenda told her that she had read her diary. Jane wrote all her secrets in the diary, and now it had been revealed by her evil sis. Everyone has privacy, and she had the rights to has privacy too. Brenda told Jane's secrets to their mum,Jane won't forget bout it.It'll stuck in her brain and never escape. She wished that she don't have a sis, she wanted to kill her or maybe run away from this family. She want freedom,privacy and happiness. There she was, crying alone in a "jail".

A memorable day!

"Crap!"he said . He wanted to proof to her that he could do this for her! He stepped in the court. Every1 looked at him curiously,wondering why was he late. He did not bother,he just made his move to the seat and placed his bag on the wooden chair. He did not bother to greet his friends. This was the 1st time he felt nervous. But,he remained calm. He wanted to win this game! Just for her! He hugged his body for comfort,tapped his foot impatiently. He was waiting for his turn to beat the skinny guy. Gosh..He was so thin like a BAMBOO! Lets just eat him up! Finally,he won! He din smile,she wasn't there. He sighed..But,at least he won. Suddenly,her high heels on the wooden floor echoing loudly. He turned his gaze towards her. His face enlighten with a grin. She smiled and ran towards him. He welcomed her with a hug, carried her weight. Tears of joy dripping on her shoulder. She wiped away his tears with her small little finger and pressed her lips on his.

I love this song!

Gosh! I love"Just the way you are" by Bruno Marce. It's gorgeous. Hey guys, you can try to listen this song! You'll like it! Some girls wish that their boyfren'll sing this song to them. It's true! The lyrics are romantic,nice and awesome. I love the tempo! When the music started,I couldn't figure out what song was that although I listened to it for hundreds time. When it reached the chorus, The title'll appeared in my brain. Damn! Tips to boys= You can sing this song to your gf, they'll feel happy and their heart'll open for u.^^

The Past

She rushed into the room and screamed:Fire! Fire! Everybody looked at her suspiciously...Except him. He stood up,looking nervous. He rushed to the stairs,almost fell. But,he din't care. He just wanted to look for her. There she was, sitting gracefully. She crossed her legs, her right hand gripping a black pen, her smooth fringe covered the side of her face. He smiled and let out a sigh when he saw her. "How can she remain so calm when there's a fire?" he shrugged. He just stood there,looked at her, he fought the urge to hug her. He wanted to protect her.
The moment she turned her head,he had gone. She knew someone was there,looked at her. But.who was that?

Ouch!

I felt bad when I chased u guys out...There's a knife in my heart. U guys are my frens,but that is a part of my job. If I let u  guys stay,I'm the one who get into trouble,not u. So,I had to. So sry, I hope u all understand. Haiz.....

I have a fren,she's cute! Haha.. But,she kinda emo nowadays..I really don't like it and U shd knw it! I like the way u smile & dancing around. Hahahaa....U said u left behind by someone. Actually, you r not. You think too much! It's true. Sometimes, I had that feeling too. But,I'll always remember that someone said: "Some ppl do care bout u". So,I'll keep it in my mind. My fren,u shd listen to my words too. We love u and we'll never leave u. We are BFF! I miss u,my fren.

An embarassing day...

Oh gosh,kena marah by teacher today at dataran setia! Haha! Why am i laughing?? Duh! Ya,right,it's my fault. I made the 1st move, suddenly,the teacher scolded:Oooi! SPBT! NO RESPECT! GONNA TELL SPBT TEACHER! My mind said opps! I threw a whatever look,and walked back. It's nt d 1st time kena marah! So,hu cares? But,she shouldn't scold spbt teacher,it's nt her fault! It's mine! Scold me only! OK???? Dun pull the innocent people into this mess! Anyway,it's over...

There's a girl. She told me that she live in a dark world.She wished to escape from it and search for light,hope. When she was holding the book tightly in her palms,eyes focused on the words,but the mind was in the air. She couldn't understand every single word, she tried so hard to focus on it, but she failed. Suddenly, she couldn't see anything, except the dark side of the world. She hoped that someone'll lend a hand for her,pull her away from the darkness forever. But,there was noone. She began weeping alone at d corner,tears dripping. Sad for her. What a lonely girl!

The 1st blog!

I'm thinking whether having blog is the right choice for me. I'm so bored nowadays.I have ntg to do except blogging???Oh ya,fbin n msn... I just wanna spit out everything that kept in my brain. I read a story,she said:Ytd,my brain was spinning,my heart was aching. I saw a fool stood infront of me,he crossed his hands across his chests. His eyes moved to the left and to the right,but never looked infront. I was standing infront of him. He was sweating,he've no idea what is goin to happen next. He could feel his heart bounced  every minute,every second. He wished he could take a move,but he never did as usual. He wanted to talk to her so badly, but his body frozen, he sighed..I sighed too,and walked away,never look back. The end. I was thinking why the guy is so useless,boys should take a move if nt their love ones'll kena rampas by others.