Never give a second chance

The rain was pouring on the empty street, flushed away the dirt and the rubbish. Stray cats and dogs hided under a tree or in the dark hole. Licking their paws and lie their chin on their paws. May was watching the gloomy sky and the rain poured down in front of her, hand on her chin. Is it going to flood? Where had the birds gone? It was so cold in the morning, there was no Sun, no warm at all. Shivers ran down her spine, she hugged herself for comfort. The rain reminded her past. All her memories came back to her all of a sudden. She used to like a guy very much. His name is Daniel. May was just a friend to him. But, he was not just a friend to her, in fact, he was way more important than a best friend. After being friends for 6 years, she fell in love with him. She soon realized she couldn't live without him. Her hand would grab his hand when he leaved her. He was tired of her, he wanted to make a new friend. So, he walked towards a pretty girl and said hi. They had become friends since then. She replaced May. May and Daniel never walked together anymore, never hang out together anymore, never eat together and never greet each other again. They became strangers. After a week, Daniel requested that girl to become his girlfriend, she agreed for sure. May stood there, eyes frozen with horror when watched that girl nestled on him. Daniel cried in joy, but May cried in despair. She clenched her fist, turned around and stormed out the corridor. People around her looked at her curiously, some wondered why, some whispered into each other' ears while some pitied her. When she reached home, she sunk down on her bed, clutching the pillow tightly, tears rolled down her cheeks, wet the pillow. Screaming in the pillow, so that her parents wouldn't notice. "Why? How could you treat me this way? Why are you being such a jerk? I'm your best friend, am I? Don't you know I like you?"May muttered while holding the photo frame of both of them, smiling happily in front of the camera. Wonders and confusion were boiling in her brain. He hurt her too much, way too much. There was no reason to forgive him. She knew he just treated her as a doll all this time. It was so unfair, girls were born not to just been play by boys, girls were born to be respect by others. The last decision had made, she sunk into her pillow and closed her eyes although she knew that day would be a sleepless night. The next month, everything had changed, the Sun rose from the west, the birds were sleeping in the morning. Daniel stood in front of May, eyes locked on her, never moved an inch. He grabbed her hand, but she shoved it away. "I'm sorry,May. I want you back. Can we get back to normal? What I did last time was a shame, what I did was a mistake, I was being stupid all the time. I thought pretty girl would be different. But,they are not. You are different, you are special, you are my soul mate. I should be with you, not her. It was so wrong." Daniel said with hope. "It's over. It has been a month. Yeah, you were so wrong. You are such a jerk. There is no point to be with you and talk to you is a waste of time. Just leave me alone." May murmured through gritted teeth. " I thought you like me. I thought we are meant to be together. But now you don't want to talk to me. I know it was my fault. I hurt you and I wanna make it right. Please start all over again. I'm sure I won't hurt you this time. I can make you happy." " How can you so sure that you won't hurt me again? Cut one of your finger to make your promise? You made me cried all day long. How can I know you won't do it to me again? There is no chance for you to make it right. You just want a girl,that's all. By the way, I don't want to become a jerk by accept your forgiveness. I don't want to stay with a jerk." May finished her words and stormed away. Victory grin hung on her face, she swayed her hands back and forth in the corridor while Daniel sunk to his knees, his face became pale and felt regret for what he did.

Can't pretend nothing happen between us

When Kay was strolling down the dark alley, all she think was him, she couldn't stop thinking bout him. Her head hung down, watched every step carefully, hoped that she wouldn't make a mistake. Once the decision is made, we've to go on. In her dreams, he was there to hold her hands, hand in hand walking down the alley. He shooed away the darkness and evilness, protected her from being hurt. He would smile at her and told her that it was okay. But, he was not there in reality. He's gone. A single tear came out from the corner of her eye. In the past, he would wave his hand in the air and smiled at her whenever he came across. Now, he would just walked straight without turning his head, his mouth was still, eyes never focus on her. She could sense him when he passed by, hand balled into fist. She was trying to stay calm and made her way, but she never felt okay. She would peep at him from a far distance without his notice. Sometime, she hoped that he would look at her, just a peep only, but he disappointed her every time. He had no feeling for her, it was over. He didn't say but it was obvious,she could feel it. He might fall for someone, somehow Kay wished that he still like her. At least 1%, but he didn't care bout her anymore, she was just a leaf which had been blew by the wind from one place to another. When she walked towards him, he would walked the other way and increase his pace, tried to stay away from her until out of sight. Then, she just stood there like a lost kid, eyes widen, anger ran down her spine. "I'm not a ghost! Why are you running away from me?"Kay whispered. "Suddenly,you told me that you like me. Now, you ignore me as if I am invisible. I've no idea what are you thinking. Do you think this is fun? Is this a joke?" Kay whispered behind him. She knew he couldn't listen, she had the sudden urge to scream at him, grab a thing and hit his head for hurting her, made her cried in the midnight, the dark circles under her eyes became darker. She wanted him to pay for that! She didn't hate him, she liked him. But, what's the point if he didn't like her anymore? Was that what he wanted? There was no decision to make except one: forget him. Since then, she walked left, while he walked right. They would never meet together. If they passed by, they would just treated each other invisible. What happened last time was past tense, it should be erase from the brain, there was nothing to remember or keep.

My darling's bday

Today,we celebrated Mei Yee's birthday in fruitland again. Hehe! It's an awesome place although the paint is pink. I booked the place, but I was late.Hah! Kena marah! Pai seh! Actually,we planned this for a week, we decided to give her a surprise. But,I could see that she already knew, she just acted blur. Haha! We made a card for her and I went to RT to buy a mirror chocolate cake for her. I guess the cake was okay. When we reached there, we ordered the food. After that, I went to the kitchen to take out the cake. I just realized that jie jie didn't know how to use lighter. Haha! She switched off the light and we sang birthday song. She made a wish, she looked so cute! Ohya,she said something very funny. She said that her friends are very cute especially me. Then, I was like huh? She made a very funny and weird speech la. It's her style. Once again, we kept taking photos like insane people who never take photo. It looked like we were going to graduate. Especially Yiming kept running around to take photos with us. So cute! Malau and Soo Sum were so cute when they were playing wii. We were so noisy, our voice echoed in the restaurant. Luckily, nobody complained. The fruitland Jie jie also very happy la. She gave a free dessert for Mei Yee! I like her so much la! Haha! Anyway, Thx to ming,yee,emme,pei ling,soo sum,gah see,tzer, giraffe,jie,bamboo,leng lui,xian hua,malau,jin,le for coming today! Love you guys! Once again, Happy Birthday to Mei Yee!

Emmelin's Bday!

When Emme, Pei Ling and I reached SS15, we saw xing yee, Yiming and mei yee were eating at mcd. We went in and talked for a while. Then, we passed by Fruitland, and we saw the set lunch promotion. We thought it cost rm7.90. The set lunch included main course, appetizer and dessert. So,we went in. The waitress handed us the menu. We looked deeper at the menu, there wrote set lunch costs rm7.90 ONWARDS! Haha! We kena tipu or maybe our eyesight became worse. My eyesight become worse now!!! OMG!!! It's true! I went to check my eyesight. Emmelin and I ordered 2 set lunch. Our set lunch include spicy noodles which was really spicy, salad, sausages and puddings. I hate the pink pudding!!! It tasted like antibiotic. We ordered desserts too such as watermelon lolo, rainbow lolo, honeydew lolo and mango lolo. Honeydew lolo is nice! Mei Yee chose the right food! Anyway, lolo is quite a funny name. We took a lot of pictures. It was the first time! I think we had took hundreds of picture in one day. We just held the camera and clicked here and there. We walked around as if we owned the place. Not many customer though. The waitress was so pretty and nice. She had a beautiful smile and treated us well. I like her! LOL! Ohya! Of course, we sang happy birthday song for Emmelin, the birthday girl! One guy who sat opposite our table cheered for us and wished her too. Haha! Actually, we wanted to watch movie, but we didn't have much time left. So, we played games which was really exciting. Emmelin played well, she was so excited. She carried the remote and kept hooping up and down like a small girl. The guy behind us kept watching us with curious eyes. Paiseh! Anyway,we didn't care. We enjoyed the whole day and we had french fries! The best french fries I ever ate. I like the sauce! We'll go there next time for sure! It's a must,I guess. Happy Birthday, Emmelin! We love you!

Everything is a lie

The things you told me were lies, fake but sounded real to me. I believed everything you said, it was unbelievable,right? You are my close friend, but I doubt I am your friend. Maybe you never treat me as your close friend,maybe you change your opinion bout me, maybe you don't like me at all. I want to know what's my mistake, what did I do to you, did I make you feel unhappy. Is it my fault? You change or I'm the one who change? For my opinion, you change a lot, you are a stranger to me, you make me feel like I don't know you at all. I change too, because you change, I change. I don't want to feel like this, I want to be the real me, I want to be the happy one, not the sad one. I've been thinking every minute and every second. What happen to us? Why you want to lie to me? What makes you change? When I clicked wrongly and found that you lied to me, my heart sank. I was so shocked, tears were welling in my eyes, hand clenched into fist. I clicked the next page immediately to wash away the pain, I couldn't bear with it anymore, I couldn't look at it anymore. I saw you there, a smile hung on your face, that day I want to punch you in your face so badly. How could you lie to me? You know I hate lies, why you still want to do this to me? Why? Why? Why? My head spun with wonders and questions. I questioned other people for truth although it hurt me because I need to know the truth! When they told me, I accepted it calmly and gave a smile. Actually, my heart twisted, my blood boiled, my head was going to burst. You didn't say sorry, you didn't explain to me. In fact, you didn't tell me anything. I wanted to ask you so badly, but I couldn't. I can't face you anymore, I can't face a liar. But,I still want you to explain to me. At least,a word. But, you treat me as a invisible person, you don't talk to me at all. That night, when I went into my bedroom, switched off the light, lie on the bed. I hugged my knees and started to cry, my pillow began to soak with tears. I wanted to sleep, I was tired but I couldn't. Hot tears streamed down my cheeks non stop, I closed my face with my hand to stop myself from crying. Before that night, I wished I could have a peace year. But, the God didn't listen to my wish. I crawled out from the bed, I felt thirsty and hurt, tears still rolled out from the corner of my eye. I took a bottle of **** and drank it all. I wanted to force myself to sleep, so I used this way. I wished that I would forget everything after I woke up in the next morning. After a long crying, I went to sleep, hugged myself for comfort. The next morning, I woke up late, my eyes were wet and swollen. I felt nothing at first, my mind was blank. I sat on my bed, placed my hand on my forehead, I got a terrible headache. Memories began to swim into my brain, I sighed and began to do my own things. I wanted to feel relax,so I went to swim. I chose the the time when nobody swam. I jumped into the water and stayed under the water for a while. I forced myself to forget everything,but it was useless. Every time I made a move, I would think bout you, think bout the lies you said to me. When I swam on my back, the weight on my shoulder relaxed a little, I watched the Sun on the sky, it gave me light, it showed the path to me. Once I touched the floor, the pressure came back to me again. The only thing I can do to forget bout it is to make myself busy. So,I kept finding stuff to do. I lost appetite because of you. I keep asking myself that are we still friends? Will you talk to me again? I can forgive you if you explain to me now. I hope that you won't lie to me again. I keep flashing those moments we had been together, the things you said to me, how you treat me. I hope those moments will come back soon! Please don't make me wait too long because I'm really tired. I want lies cut out from my brain. When I am writing this blog, I almost cry because I still can't believe that you lied to me,not just once.