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Sunday, June 26, 2011

Things that a girl wants a boy to do.

1. She wants him to say "hi" first.
2. She likes to watch him smiles
3. She will wait for him to online.
4. She wants him to comment in her facebook post.
5. When she's standing motionlessly in front of him, she wishes he will run to her and hug her.
6. She likes it when he touches her head although her hair will be messy.
7. She wishes he will hold her hand when they are sitting/ walking together.
8. She loves it when he grabs her hand tightly.
9. She loves his eyes that only focus on her eyes.
10. When she cries, she wishes he will hug her and tell her that everything is okay.
11. She loves his jokes although some are lame.
12. She hopes he will talk to her all the time.
13. She wishes he will always be there to lend his shoulders.
14. She wishes he will always be there for her no matter what.
15. She is glad that he is jealous when she is with another boy.
16. She doesn't want him to be so close with other girls.
17. She wishes he will sing her fav song to her
18. She wishes he will give her a bouquet of flowers.
19. She wishes he will plan a birthday party for her.
20. She wishes he will call her every day.
21. She wishes he will text her every day.
22. She wishes he will help her to take her stuff although it just a plastic bag.
23. She wishes he will hold her hand in front of everyone.
24. She wishes he will take care of her all the time.
25. She wishes he will nag at her but not too much
26. She wishes he will stay with her when other people are trying to bully her.
27. She wishes he will stand close to her until she could almost feel his breath.
28. She wishes he will cook her fav food!
28. She wishes he will eat up the leftover.
29. She wishes he will kill the cockroaches for her.
30. She wishes he will change for her.
31. She wishes he will help her to do anything.
32. She wishes he will not cry for her.
33. She wishes he will never break her heart.
34. She wishes he will never disappoint her.
35. She wishes he will never make her cry.
36. She wishes he will invite her for a movie.
37. She wishes he will invite her for a date!
38. She wishes he will walk with her side by side.
39. She wishes he will walk her home.
40. She wishes he will hold an umbrella for her.
41. She wishes he will help her to put on her shoes.
42. She wishes they can watch the sunset together.
43. She wishes he will hug her from the back.
44. She wishes he will talk softly to her.
45. She wishes he will only treat her good.
46. She wishes she will be the one for him.
47. She wishes he will never fool her feelings.
48. She wishes he will love her..truly love her.
49. She wishes he will plant a kiss on her forehead.
50. She wishes he will plant a kiss on her cheek.
51. She wishes he will kiss her lips.
52. She wishes he will miss her all the time.
53. She wishes he will understand her.
54. She wishes he will never leave her.
55. She wishes he will never say bye to her to let her know he will never leave her.
56. She wishes he will accept her. Everything bout her.
57. She wishes he will click "like" on eveything she posts.
58. She wishes he will give her anything she wants.
59. She wishes he will tell her the truth
60. She hopes he will say "I love you" to her. Only her.


Is there a guy can do all the list?

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Broken pieces

 Joey remembered the day she collapsed. Dropped her knees to the floor, both palms covering her burning face, wiping away hot tears from her swollen eyes.She stood up, tend to walk forward, but she collapsed in the end again. When she was bathing, she cried out loudly, clear everything out from her throat. She let the steaming water carried away her tears and suffers. She grabbed a towel and wrapped around her body, dropped her knees and started to cry again. Food meant nothing to her. When she grabbed the bread, her tears fell on it and she tried hard to swallow the bread with tears. The only thing she wanted to do is sleep. Forget everything that happened.....

Actually, things started to change their path earlier on. Joey knew that. Her best friend, May just walked with Joey after school. Joey tried to come out with a topic. But, when May saw her "new" friend, Grace, May ran to Grace. May just walked away from Joey. Joey was stunned, speechless and heartbroken. She clenched her fist tightly and walked away as fast as she could, didn't want to look at them walking together happily like a couple. They walked faster than her. Although Joey didn't want to look at them, she still peeked at them and she caught May turned her head and looked at her expressionlessly. That was a cold face. May and Joey used to be super best friends, shared almost everything. Now, May has a "new" best friend which is Grace, so she dumped the old toy, Joey. Most of the people were jealous of them. They were wondering how could May and Joey were so close together. Now,it was a past. History.

When Joey woke up, all her sadness, anger, jealousy and confusion flushed back to her. Sick. Tears welled up in her eyes. She couldn't stop thinking. "F* U! How could you do that to me?"she whispered alone in the dark room. The next day, her mind became positive. If Joey really wanted May, she could get back May. Joey was smart, she could think of a way to improve their friendship. There's gotta be. So, Joey tried to talk to her every day, tried to please her. Yeah, their friendship improved, but not as close as before. There was a gap between them. When May went to Joey's house. There was a silence. Long.... So bored being together. There was no topic at all except a few lame talks. Joey was the one who started the topic. Most of them. While May just answered shortly. It was not a chat,it looked more towards to an interview.

Joey was a very busy person, she got lots of work to do. Unfortunately, May just didn't understand. May hated when Joey was busy. It made things worse. Joey had to choose either friends or work. It was very difficult. Something pulling down her neck. Work was so important, but she didn't want to lose her friends too. Why couldn't her friend being understanding? WHY? The thing she afraid the most had came to her. She had no choice but to face it. When Joey asked May for a small help, May couldn't do it. May didn't even care to bother what was Joey doing. May threw it as a trash. Joey had put a lot of effort into it, but may threw it away. Joey couldn't believe  it. Her best friend just threw Joey's years of effort into the bin. "How could she?" Joey was so disappointed and heartbroken. She was fed up! Her best friend didn't appreciate it at all! What?! May didn't treat Joey as a best friend anymore. May didn't give a damn to what happen to Joey. Joey felt betrayed. Hell. Nobody cares bout her.

It's so tiring....to get back a friend.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Unwanted split Part 3

Here it goes again. I can't remember everything what I wrote in part 1 and part 2, but I do remember what we did. We are adolescences, not kids anymore. Why should we argue? Hate each other? We don't say: "I don't want to friend you anymore." That is outdated,that's just for kids. There's no reason to do that. We are mature now, we should be mature. We've grown up! We gonna be adult soon. These "things" have to be thrown. Forget. Destroy. Shake hand, everything will be gone. Wait. Is that easy? I don't think so..

I just reached 16. I can't say I'm fully mature. But, I can say that I've gone through think and thin since I stepped into secondary school. Faces had been scanned through, personalities had been dug. Well,most of the people have their lovers. Puppy love. Do you think love can affect friendship? Well, I believe. When someone loves other person deeply,soon that person will forget bout friends and start to ditch them. Isn't it? They don't get along with their friends anymore. In their mind,just lovers. They talk bout their lovers all day long, every min, every sec. Soon, their friends get bored with it and don't want to bother bout them anymore. For them,it's BORING! If that person has a enemy, he/she will persuade his/her lover to hate them too. So, the lover got affected. Some hate the enemy too. Some just hate the enemy for nothing, they just wanna fulfill their lovers' request. They just do anything what their lovers ask them to do. Soon,groups formed. It does affect friendship. Luckily,there are some who are loyal to friends.

Friends do help each other, not using each other. Real friends don't throw them after using them. Real friends just don't befriend them for benefits. Real friends don't treat their friends as dolls. They treat them as human. I truly hope I'm not a doll. There will be smart people and average people among friends. There are some who are not into study but there are some who are into study too. Smart people are smart. They meant to be smart, they can help others in many ways. But,sometime,they need help too. Although they are good in results, that doesn't mean they are good in everything. Do you know the smartest person is the lonelinest person? Well,it's because the others keep calling them freaks and the others don't understand how important is studies to them. You see, it's because of misunderstanding that breaks it apart. People who are not good in results doesn't mean they are stupid. They are just not interested with it,or they just can't do it better. We can't blame them. We shouldn't look down on them. They are human too. They have brains too,not idiots. By the way, we should help them because they are our friends too...Study gap do influence friendship.

Example, You like Rain, everyone need to follow you to like Rain too? Well,I wrote Rain because I believe none of us like him. Lol. You are not the queen nor king, you can't just tell everyone to do the way you like. I mean, not everyone have the same interest,same hobby and same mind. Everyone is different. There's no way a person 100% same as you. Everyone is born to be different in their own way. If a person doesn't have the same interest as you, that doesn't mean you guys can't go well. Will you ditch a person who doesn't have the same interest as you do? If you are willing to befriend them, they gonna be friends of yours. Maybe best friends too. There is so much things to talk, not just only interest. Unless you don't feel like talking to them. There are people who have the same interest as you, so you keep hanging out with them which makes you forget bout the others,left them behind like lost kids. That's so wrong. You shouldn't forget them. You need them too. Once they are gone, they never come back to you again because you hurt them, you've made a mistake. A big and selfish mistake.


Jealousy! Hah! We are familiar bout that. There's a strong jealousy between us. Poof! Fire surrounding us. Dark and evil. Jealous bout what?  Fame? Looks? Body? Result? Nah.... I don't know. I'm not sure. Dissatisfaction bout yourself? Want to be the only one who got the attention? And destroy others? That's a wrong idea. Nobody can be the queen nor king. You destroy others, actually you are destroying yourself. Everything will come back to you soon. You just couldn't see it. It's just the beginning. You like someone, but that person doesn't like you. Instead that person like someone else, like you friend. Will you hate them? It's not their fault. You can't just force someone to like you. It's love. It depends on feelings. That person falls for other person, you can't blame them. The only thing to do is wish them. Not breaks them apart, it will make things worse. If your friend likes the person you like too. It's not a bad thing. It's a good thing too. At least the person you like got a person who is good to be with. Accept it with a smile. Wish them happy. Feel glad bout it. The person make a right choice. A better person is waiting for you out there. There's no need to depress.

There's no one perfect in this world. Am I good or bad? It's up to how you guys thinking. Let me tell you, I'am good. not 100% good though, not as good as an angel. There's a lot of people who are good just like you. You are not bad. If you doesn't miss the old time, I don't mind. It's up for you to decide. It's your choice. Nobody will force you. There's not hatred. Remember,it's your choice. Make sure it's a good and satisfying choice...

The end.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

The person who throws me away

The person who say hi to me at first
sitting beside me.
The person who talks to me
looking at me.
The person who share secrets with me
looking at me with trust.
The person who laughs in front of me
smiles gracefully.
The person who crys in front of me
wants me to stay beside her/him.
The person who doesn't want to be alone
begging me to stay.
The person who wants to hangout
inviting me to join.
The person who wants to eat
persuading me to eat.
The person who wants to meet me
coming to my house.
The person who wants to call me
pressing on the phone.
The person who hates enemy
gossiping bout them.
The person who lost friend
came to me.
The person who is bored
finding me for a chat.
The person who is lost
calling me for help.
The person who loves me
loving me every day.
The person who miss me
thinking of me.
The person who doesn't want to say bye
never say bye.

However, the person had gone.
Now.............
The person who has new friends
ditch me.
The person who has new interest
never do the same thing with me.
The person who is sad
came to me.
But, the person who is happy again
ditch me once again.
The person who needs homework
come to me.
But, the person who finish copying the homework
ditch me again.
The person who needs advice
come to me but never listen.
The person who is alone
come to me.
But, when there is other people
the person ditch me again.
The person who needs to talk
doesn't find me again.
The person who doesn't want to say bye
say bye forever now....
The person just disappear into the midst like a magic. "Pof!" Everything's gone.....
The person who throws me away.....

Friday, June 3, 2011

Unwanted split Part 2!


What is it now? I REALLY WANT TO ASK WHAT IS IT NOW? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO
DO?! Can't you feel that I'm fixing things? I'm trying to be nice, and you treat me as a bad girl. Why? I'm using all my effort to fix it, but you splash water on me. That's pathetic,huh? You can laugh at me for being such an idiot. I don't mind. You can say me anything you want. I don't mind. Do you know why, because I'm just being myself. I don't mind what other people think bout me. I know that I'm good,it's enough. Let me tell you, I never lie to you. Lie can bring death. It's a big crime. That's why I can't stand lies. Okay, I admit I lied before, but that's just white lies. But I know, you lied before. You lied to me, I cried.... Let's forget bout it. Do you ever lie to your friend? You are allow not to tell me. You know what you did, it's enough. You know you did wrong,it's enough. If you think you're always right, you are wrong. You think you are smart enough, and don't listen to what other people said, just keep to your view, that's way too wrong! You are not always right. There is sometime you are wrong too. First,let me tell you once again. THIS IS NOT DECLARING A WAR! This is.....truth....

I was hurt. No,now too. Way too hurt. Not just because of me. Other people too. When I heard bout that, I felt guilty. Is it bout me? They said no. But others might do. Am I the spoiler? They said no. I don't know why I still can't believe. Ditching the one that care bout you is wrong. A big mistake. Very big. You will never find the one who cares bout you so deep.... Once you miss,it's gone...forever... How can you ditch them? I'm questioning.... They are human! Not dolls! They are not yours. They are ours. We! All of us! You can't ditch them whenever you like! They've treated you so good, how can you did this to them? Why? I didn't say you are evil. I just don't understand. They are staying beside you all the time, suddenly you just push them to aside. Do you know how will they feel? Do you experience before? You didn't experience before, so you will never know how they feel. If you keep on like this, you're the next one. I don't want you to be the next one. Please change it. Turn back! You are so different. I want you back! So much! Although I've been through up and down, I don't mind. It's past,isn't it. I learn to forget and forgive now....No ditch....

Hate? Is there hatred? I hope not. I hope... We don't have hatred. Just wonders. Angels and demons? No way. Human, that's it. I made the move. It's useless. You kick me out. I'm disqualified. Let me tell you, I don't mind! I won't give up! I'm not a loser! Maybe you will think I'm insane! No! It's just me. I can't stand what's going on now. Everything is a nightmare. When I wake up, I feel strange, unhappy and tired...Exhausted..I wanna go back to sleep, I don't want to face this. But this is real, I've to accept it no matter what. I made a change. I made a plan. You guys just can't see it. I know you will someday. Come on! Look at us! We're not bad! We are good! We're here! We've made the move, why don't you just step forward? Please don't step back because it will be worse. I don't want it to happen. We're all in this together... There's part 3. I don't have much time. So, I will continue next time. I hope you will read it.Thx! It meant alot!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Genting with my friends 2!

Impossible. No way! Well, yes way! Haha! I went to genting! Not with my family. My friends! Weeeee! Super awesome! My family actually allow me to go! Wow! Anyway, my mum didn't want me to go. But, she didn't care anymore. Back to the track. Mei yee, her sister, her sister's boyfriend and I took the genting express buy way up to skyway at 9am. While Xing Yee, Yiming and yee's mum took the bus at 8am. Bout 9.50, we reached skyway. Before that, Mei yee and I took some pictures in 1 Utama. It was lame because there was no people except the owners of the shops. I wanted to buy ice cream, but it didn't open yet. It was too early. So, when we reached Genting, Mei and I met up with Yee and Ming in the hotel, we put our bags and leaved the hotel. After that, we made our way to the Outdoor Theme Park. First, we played the Cyclone because there was not many people queuing, so we took this opportunity to take a ride. Haha. The weather was terrible,horrible and vegetable. I was the only one without hood, too bad... So I borrowed Mei's second jacket to cover my head. It was so hot, we soon to be roasted pigs. Yee was sick,haiz....Luckily, she recovered in the end, but she lost her voice because of screaming. Haha. I think we can barbeque in such a weather. Still, we managed to fight the weather, because we wanted to play so much! We kept complaining bout the weather all the way, how bad was it and how unlucky were we. Last time we went, there was a heavy rain, we just played 7 games. Now, the hot sun was shone at us. Soon, the sun gone back to it's horizon. Pheww! Love the God! We played the cup,flying dragon, riding boat, pirates boat, elephant, aeroplane, cockscrew, matahari and what else? We almost played all,anyway! Haha! When we were on the way to the flying dragon entrance, we met Malau, Leng lui and shortie! Haha! I was the first one who saw them and I hop towards them. Then, we reached the flying dragon's entrance,it was closed! Omg! We went to flying dragon's entrance for a few times and it was closed! Ish! The last time we went there, we walked closer towards the notice board. There was a paper wrote: "This entrance had closed, if you want to play flying dragon, please make your way to the indoor theme park near the sky adventure." When we saw that, our mouth were gaping. "Smart". We should walk closer at first. Bang the wall. Then,we went to play flying dragon. We played twice because there was not many people. We just jumped across the steel. Malau, Shortie and leng lui were playing Go Kart that time, such a waste of time, waited for more than 1 hour. After that,we had our lunch bout 2 something in Kenny Rogers. Well,the chicken was so small,it was meant to be served for kids la....not us....After lunch, we went to play again. First,we went to flying dragon again haha because the others miss that just now. Then,we went for the swing again. Mei went back after that because she gonna take the bus which was depart at 6pm. So, bye bye Mei. We kept persuading her to stay, but she didn't want. Haiz...I sent her back to skyway because she didn't know the way. We ran to the skyway because we were afraid she might miss the bus. That was the first time I ran in Genting. Many people were looking at us with curiosity. "Why are we running?" Lol..... When she reached skyway, I ran back to Outdoor Theme Park again. It was so tiring, my legs were wobbling. Omg... Thanks to Mei, I got to exercise. Haha. I kept saying that I wanted to play the "sampan" which is the boat came down from the top and splashed into the water! It was fun! But,nobody wanna get wet with me. Haizz..So,yeah.. I didn't play. The midst came and went. It was a nice weather in the end. Cooling but no rain. Wait, there was a rain,but just last for 5mins. That was when Mei,Yee,Ming and I were queuing to ride the boat. Luckily, the rain did not last long. The ticket is available until 6pm only. Before 6, we went to cocksrew! Muahahaha!! 360 degree roller coaster. Ming almost burst into tears because she was so scared. Cute though. Haha! When we were queuing, the roller coaster passed by and the floor was shaking, drilling and freaked Ming. Leng lui kept asking her want to call penguin or not. She wanted so badly, however she didn't have that courage. In the end, we stepped into the roller coaster, Malau sat with me, what a bad choice. Malau kept screaming in my ears, I screamed back! When the roller coaster  was bout to fly, we screamed until our lungs came out. It was so cool! Awesome! Fun! Exciting! Thrilling! Haha!!!! I could feel the wind swooshed beside me when the roller coaster flew down. It came to halt in a sudden, physics....inertia....Lols! Malau kept mentioning bout the nilai murnis when we were on the track. Lol. Ming,Yee and I had a dinner in the room, I had bread.Haha! Leng lui said that I always eat bread, he knew it. We went for night park. Ming, Yee and I didn't want to go to night park at 1st because we were so tired. Then, I thought we didn't have anything to do, so i grabbed my shoes and made my way to the nite park. It was a good decision! There was no people at all! Barely! Haha! We played all the games and we played cocksrew for the second time again. Heavy midst surrounded us when we were playing cockscrew, couldn't see anything. There was clowns, bad clowns!!!!!!!!! One of the clown hit yee,ming and my head! Dammit! I wanna sue him! Another one stopped me from walking. I said excuse me, then he said kill me. Wth! Lols!!! I felt like pushing him. Another time, we passed by them, the clown wanna stop us again. He stopped Malau at 1st, but Malau managed to avoid him, and we did too. Haha. We quickly ran away.....There was band playing music, awesome! When Yee and I played the swing for the 3rd time, the band was playing YMCA! Haha! So nice weih,but most of them were sweating. There was a few black guys blowing fire too...About 10pm, we played flying dragon for the 4th time! Woohoo! Haha! We were addicted to it. Shortie was addicted to space shot, he kept telling us that he wanna play that, but he didn't want to play games which involved water. He was scared at first, then he became addicted. Later, they went to the food court for dinner. After that, we went to first world hotel. Shortie, Malau, Ming, Yee and I played cards. Leng lui slept the earliest, then ming's turn. Everyone was so tired, we wanted to sleep so badly. So, when we couldn't stand the tiredness, Malau, shortie and leng lui went back and everyone went to sleep bout 12 something. Yee and I heard some voice, "knock! knock! knock!" But,we didn't care because we were too tired. Haha. Eerie..The next day, we woke up at 8 something in the morning and checked out at 12pm. We had breakfast in the hotel. Ming, Yee and I went to meet them in theme park hotel. That hotel was nicer than ours! We watched national geographic and Tarzan. LOL! When leng lui and shortie were taking bath, malau was peaking at them at the door. What a pervert! Hah! Malau, shortie and I stole leng lui's popcorn! Weeeeeee! After checked out, we went to the food court again for lunch. Then, we took a walk and went back. While Malau, leng lui and shortie went to arcade because they took different bus. So, the end of journey....... Nice one! I LOVE IT!!!!! Let's go again, everyone! Weeeee!!!! The best time to go to Genting!^^ Hehe.. I really wanna eat ice cream next time! Why I always miss ice cream????? I met a new friend, Shortie! An adorable person! >< Hehe!