My beloved JoJo (Part 1)

27 September 2008- My parents and I went to a place,forgot the name. We wanted to buy a dog. The place was quite far, around 45 minutes to reach there. I knew that place through a website,petfinder I think. At first, we wanted to buy a poodle. When we stepped in the house, the scent of dogs flowed into my nose. Suddenly, a tiny puppy squashed itself through the door hole and ran towards us. The owner of the dog managed to grab it before it tried to escape successfully. It was so tiny, you might break its bones if you grab it hard. The owners guided us to the back of the house where all the dogs were placed there. There were two types of poodle: brown and white. Besides, there were also maltase, chihwahwa, golden retriever, terrier, bulldog and others. I forgot some of them. My parents changed their mind of buying poodle because they were afraid it would be difficult to handle those fur. The white poodle kept climbing on us when we were sitting on the sofa. My mother said she was afraid that the poodle might destroy the house because it was too active.LOL. Then, my dad asked:"How bout  that?"pointed the tiny dog which wanted to escape earlier. I shrugged. It was tiny.Way too TINY. I kinda rejected at first. I didn't say it out, but the owner could see that I wanted the poodle through my expression. Yeah,I wanted the poodle. In the end, my dad still decided to buy the tiny dog. Its breed is poodle mix chihwahwa. Its head was tiny, the fur was curly. Its face was chihwahwa type.My dad bought it together with the cage. The puppy cost RM300 and it was just two months and a half.

       In the car, I put her into the cage and placed the cage onto the cushion. She was sitting beside me, looking at me with those curious eyes,wondering who I am. She didn't bark at all. I looked at her,observed every part of her. She was going to my pet. She is my pet. I just realised that she is quite pretty, prettier than the poodle. I patted her tiny head, then caressed it. I smiled at her, she smiled at me too. When we reached home, we placed the cage around the corner, next to the kitchen, I let her out. Then, she started sniffing around, got to know the place and the place is her home now. She walked and looked around. Observing her home. Wherever I walked, she would follow me, surrounding me in circles. I accompanied her the whole day till I went to bed. When I climbed up the stairs, she was sitting in the middle facing the stairs, her innocent eyes locked on me. I whispered goodnight to her and went to bed. The next morning, when I was sliding down the stairs, she was in the cage sleeping soundlessly. She opened her tired eyes slowly when she heard my footsteps. Yesterday, she must be sleeping late as she kept barking when all of us went to bed. It was her first night, and she was just a little puppy, she must be afraid. "Morning!" I just said morning because I didn't give her name yet. That night, my family and I were discussing to give her a name. After my mum and dad suggested a few names, I think of "Jojo". It is a pretty cute name. I think "Jojo" suits her too. Then, my family agreed,so we called her "Jojo".

Not Me

You think I like it? Never. When I'm watching you show that suffering look in front of me, the pain is growing in my heart. Something inside my heart struggling to get out, punching its fist against the wall of the heart. The heart cracking and soon shattering into pieces. I know you feel hurt but in fact, I feel worse than you. The reason you feel it hurtful is because of me. Me, the one you love? I fail to make you happy, isn't it? I feel like a useless jerk now. I feel as if there's nothing I can do to make you happy. I've gave a bad impression to you. Maybe you feel like slapping me,right now. Sitting on the chair, eye focus on you, observing your every action. You think I don't know everything? I'm quite smart, of course I know. At first, I wanted to make a move to talk to you. But, I'm a girl, I admit that I'm a little shy. Now, I am fed up. I feel sick to look at you like this. I don't blame you. It's not your fault at all. Right, it's all my fault, and your little friend over there agrees that. Both of you makes me sick. Tired. I feel like shouting. "Stop it!" If both of you cross the line, I might say F* to you guys. But, I don't want to. You guys are my best friend, I never want to say the foul word. I blame myself for being selfish and foolish. Pretend nothing happen. Pretending that everything gonna be alright. In the end, I'm wrong. It's not alright. Maybe it's becoming worse. You can't accept it,I know. I don't know how to stop it. I've tried. I don't want to make it worse. I don't want to involve "him" either. I've explained many times, kept repeating and again. I don't think I wanna explain it again. It's just enough. You said you know, but do you? You keep showing that freaking mad or sad look in front of me. When I try to talk to you, you're like facing a disgusting person. It's like you have no intend to talk to me. Is that it? If it is, I shall disappear. Recently, I got this thought. Maybe it's wrong to sit under the same roof. Being together makes you feel miserable. If I'm not sitting under the same roof with you, things won't go that bad and I will never become the middle person. I ruined your friendship. SucK! Everything because of me. ME!!! THIS PERSON! WHY ME?! You think I want it? NO!!! I just want everything to be ok! To be normal. But,why do you have to think the negative way? I make you feel miserable. I can't give you the happiness you want. I'm not the right one. I'm not the one you want. As your little friend said, I'm evil. Just hate me.You deserve a better person, not a jerk like me.
PS: The "I" is not me.

Beanieplex At First

I tried Beanieplex for the first time in Sunway Piramid. My friends and I watched "This Means War", it was comedy+action+romance type. The movie was not bad but kinda short. We paid rm19 per person for beanieplex. If the movie extend a bit longer, it would be better. Haha! Never mind, just an experience. Just wanna try the seat because it looks nice in the photo. The seat is the sofa-type. To be honest, the seat was not as comfortable as I thought. My sofa at home is more comfortable than that. That sofa seemed to made of solid beans in it. I don't know how to describe it. I sort of forget the touch of the sofa already. HAH! The sofa was low. Way low. I was laying down on the sofa, my feet was touching the floor. I wanted to get up every time to sit properly but my arse will slid eventually. Kept sliding sown. I had no idea what type of cushion that was. If there got pillows, it would be better. So I can sleep on it. Haha! The sofa was quite spacy. You can lift up your legs if you want. You can do anything you want, there's enough space for you. If you lift you head to peep at other seats, you'll probably see their heads only. You probably can't see the people in front of you. It's like you're in your own world unless there are people sitting beside you. 3 people can fit into a sofa. I'd rather have one by myself. HAHA! Beanieplex was totally different than the ones I used to go. It is worth to have a try. After one try, I don't think there is necessary to go beanieplex anymore. I prefer sitting on my sofa and watching TV. If I have a big screen at my home,it will be perfect. ^^

The seats in Beanieplex.^  They look like huge bag beans.

In Your Arms

Being around with someone you love is the best thing happen to you. The feel, the touch and the scent. They are precious stuff which are brought by the loved ones.The warmness, you'll never feel such that in your life. It's sweet and real warm. Lovely. True love, that's what we want. If there's a chance, please appreciate it and try to be with your love ones no matter what. Don't waste it. Don't throw it into a drain. It's not worth it. Once it's gone, you'll never get it back. Being in his/her arms, you'll have that feeling. The feeling you ever want in your life. Safe, protected, comfortable and in love. Their arms are like a protective shield, protect you from anything. Never let you hurt, never let a strand of hair to fall. Besides, you'll never want to leave when you're in their arms. Addicted to it soon or later. Wish they will never let go their arms and hug you forever. Wish that everything can be freeze, time stops to tick, everything stops and stares, be in their arms forever. Don't want to wake up, just be that way. Be contact with your love ones, they will appreciate it soon you'll be thank yourself for doing that so. Relationship will improve, and the bond become closer. Leaving the one you love will be the biggest mistake in your life. Please don't do that and don't ever try. When you got the chance to be with them, accept it and do it. Lying on his/her chest, holding hands, whispering to each other,looking at each other, those are what couples do. Appreciate them. Please do and never forgets.

PS: LLB. 16/3/12

Trust in Love

       In a relationship, besides love,trust is everything. It's part of a relationship that bond each other. If there is no trust, there is nothing. No point to start a relationship at all. Fights,wars and arguments will begin and end it with a break up. If you don't trust the person you love, then, it's not love. If you love that person, you should trust her/him.

       Julia was hurt when her boyfriend, Mark just left her. Without listening to her explanation,he just walked off and closed the door behind him, left her crying alone in the darkness. Tears drizzled, heart shattered into pieces while he said that word."You're a liar.It's over" Mark said to her as if he'd slapped her across the face. She dropped to her knees while watching him pacing towards the door till out of sight. "I'm not a liar." she whispered in the darkness. She didn't do anything wrong. She didn't betray him. It was misunderstanding. She tried to explain, she did but it seemed that Mark couldn't accept it. He listened to what she said before. However, everytime after she explained, he forgot all the words she said. Julia thought one day, he will listen and accept her explanation. No,he didn't. In fact, he walked away from her. He ended it. Just because of a misunderstanding. Mistake....Urgh! Seriously, Julia didn't like that person. He was just a friend. A close friend. Jealousy crept into Mark's heart whenever he saw Julia and that bastard together.

       Julia loves Mark. She trusts him. She didn't mind when he talked to other girls. Exceptional for hot girls. Hah! If he talked to the person he liked before, she will get slightly jealous too. But,still she trust him. Mark was not that kind of person who will betray her. Somehow, Mark misunderstood Julia betrayed him. He thought Julia liked another guy. Nope,she was not. Never. That never cross her mind. Not even once. How could he think that way? Hurt, pain and disappointed. Clueless and confused. Julia thought Mark will trust her since that day they fell in love with each other. He thought he will listen to her, accept her apology, hug her and everything will be fine. It turned out to be the opposite way. It was over. No future anymore. That was it. The end of "them". No more trust. No more bond. No more love. Trust is gone forever, so does love.

No topic

Long time didn't update my blog already because I was having exam and I admit that I was lazy. Hah! No ideas to write about. My brain is out of function. My exam just over. It was a relief but I got that feeling to study. It's a Spm year. A bigger war is waiting for me. Oh God. Somehow, I just don't want to think bout it and lay down on my bed. Sleep, that's what I want to do the most. Don't think. No worries. Just sleep and have a nice dream. I just relax,you know. Don't give me any stress. Just a week,please. Oh Ya,I want to go out so badly! Have fun with my friends. Chit-chat and have a drink. I'm listening to "Never say Never" by The Fray. I used to like this song. After that, this song rots in my music file. Now, I open it up again. It is a nice song and it reminds me a lot of things.Hah. I wish I can get good results in my exam though I sort of don't mind whether it's good or bad. Argh! Any plan for hols? Damn! So boring!!!! I don't want tuition!!!!!