I am studying in Tar College right now, just stepped in on May. My life in Tarc is just okay. I just started, what else do you expect. I'm taking A Levels, I spend most of the time facing those thick books I have. It's really boring... Lifeless, I would say. NO TV and NO INTERNET in my hostel. Just books. How "interesting" is it? Well, luckily I'm used to it now. I'm struggling with PHYSICS! URGHHH! The good thing is I have some awesome friends that accompany me through the days, so that I won't feel lonely and weep on my bed. It's good to have some crazy friends some funny lecturers here. The facilities in Tarc are really great. Honestly, Tarc is a good choice. It is HUGE. A good opportunity to lose some fats. Too bad, they don't sell fish in TARC. -.-
You know, social life network updates me with all the news. Yeap, I get it. Some of the friends are not even friends anymore. Strangers to be exact. Some of the couples, well, they didn't make it. Broke up to be exact. Some best friends became normal friends. However, we make new friends. Friends remain as friends. Some are even in a relationship. Many of them, actually. Don't just look at the bad side, look at the bright side too. Emo tweets, emo status, emo conversation, emo faces, emo emo emo....Gosh. I'm sick of those. Maybe? We have to move on. This is life. Mine.
Some get to move on while some stuck in the past. It's common. We miss the familiarity, the passion, the love and whatever it is. Some love new things. Youngsters like brand new stuff, adventure and fun. For those who stuck in the past, we just can't let go but we know that we have to. Just wait for the right timing, I guess. The past is past. You have to accept that the fact it's over. Just focus on the present, don't be rush for the future. It's not worth it, you know that deep down in your heart. Ask yourself, do they even care about what are you thinking about? Do they care about your feelings? Do they care about you? Do they still remember you? Or maybe you are nothing anymore. It sounds harsh but it is a fact. Don't lose yourself trying to hold onto someone who doesn’t care about losing you.We meet new people, new stuff. Time ticks, everything changes. New feelings, new life, new style, different personality. You don't want to stuck in the past forever, do you? Be yourself, it's okay. Don't change for someone. People ditch you doesn't mean that you aren't good enough. It's just people change due to the environment. I know that Erasing yourself from somebody’s life is not as simple as walking out the door. Believe that time heals. One day, you will realise that you smile not because of that person anymore. Hats off to the friends and family around you. They are the ones who guide you to the right way.
What about the friends? Still talk as usual? I doubt that. Less conversation? Or nothing at all? I just met with my secondary school friends this afternoon. Glad to meet the girls. It's like we haven't see each other for ages. It's a good thing that we still keep in touch. What about the others? Well, we do see them being active in Facebook or Twitter. However, do we pop up to say hi to them or we just ignore? What about those who doesn't being active in social life network? Disappear? Well, who cares? "They don't even say hi to us, so why should we?" Is this often cross your mind? Maybe you just don't care at all. I seriously enjoy meeting up with old friends, talk about everything and share our stories. However, the list of friends is decreasing. Like I said, people change. They live in a different environment than yours. They don't want to bother your life too much. You just bother your own. So what about those who just got into a relationship? Hah. You don't want to be a light bulb, do you? That is not the only reason. Awkwardness and loneliness will creep in. Everyone around is holding hand with their partners while you are holding your bag? If both of them are your friends, that is fine. If the other half is a stranger, damn. I will suggest you to just chill at home. Trust me, it's better. Grab a comedy film, it make your day. So please don't forget your friends. Spare some time to hang out with your old schoolmates. Keep in mind that they are the one who accompany you through the old days.
PS: Keep in touch, people. I miss you. XOXO
