That "Feeling" Again.

Pain, hurt, numb,aching in me. Struggle like an insect which is going to die. The feeling is back again. The terrible feeling. The feeling that I might lose everyone. This time is caused by the different people This time is them. The ones who helped me before, stayed with me when I was in trouble. Why is them now? I'm not sure. I can't confirm but I have that feeling. They ignored me almost every week. Though it was not a few days straight. It was alternative. Oh God, I don't want "that" to happen again. It was a nightmare to me. A terrible nightmare, a catastrophe. I hate that, I hate this feeling creeping in my heart. I wanna stop it. I want a medicine to cure it. But, the only medicine to cure it is them. I can't lose them. They are part of my life. T.T Will they leave me just like them? I really don't want to lose them. Whenever they ignore me, my tears are close to my eyes though I never express it in front of them. I'm afraid. Tired. Speechless and clueless. I don't what to do whenever they ignore me because they will never tell me the reason. I'll apologize for nothing. It worth because they talk to me after that. I feel relief when they talk to me. Safe and no worries. In my protective zone. I wish they tell me the true reason, so at least I know something. So,I can learn from the history; so I won't do the same mistake to you again. The feeling, I wish it never come back. When I fall, I hope you'll pull me up. Without you,I'm nothing. I'm alone. Alone is just a dot. Sorry, I need you to be wtih me. Sorry that I'm annoying...

PS: Talk to me, don't ignore me, never leave me, I need you.