Tom knew he was a friend of hers. Just a friend. Wait, a close friend,maybe best friend, definitely not just a normal friend. But what he confirmed was that, he was definitely not her boyfriend. It's misunderstanding. At first, Tom really thought that Christine liked him. He thought he was the one when she mentioned that she likes someone. Smile was on his face that time. Can't stop smiling, can't stop thinking bout her, can't stop missing her. He actually loves her. Till now. It's very hard to forget her after she had done so many things. She cared bout him. Talked to him all the time. Chat with him every day. Sat with him in the class. He was the one she went for when she was depress. She told him everything, everything in her life. Bitter,sour,salty or sweet. She soon became a part in his life. Tom was a part in her life too. She never forget him,but only as a best friend. Not as what Tom expected.
Why he was just a friend to her? Why? Tom kept questioning to himself again and again. He treat her so well, better than anyone else...except her boyfriend. He lost to her boyfriend. He had to admit that her boyfriend treat Christine better than him, loves her more than him. He loves her. But not as much as him. He loves her deeply. But not as deep as him. He cares bout her. But not as much as him. He plays a role as a friend. The limits were there. Couldn't cross the line. So, he continued to be a good listener, a close classmate and a best friend. Sometime, he will look at her from the far end. He knew he couldn't have her, so he could just stood there and looked at her, looked at her beautiful smile. It warms his heart.
Of course there was jealousy. Watching her boyfriend and her being close to each other, hugging each other and smiling at each other hurts him. Each action they make send a knife to his heart. How he wish he could be the one who hold her hands. Sigh... Being sad couldn't change anything. He could only sit there and watching them. Sometime, he wanted to talk to her but he was afraid that her boyfriend will get jealous. Later, he was trying to ignore her. Tried to forget her. Unfortunately, it was impossible. He loves her too deep. When it got too deep, it is very difficult to let go. It suffered him for not bothering her. Leaving her alone. Not a single word came out from his mouth made his throat thirst. He became lonely without her presence, felt different. Everything was different without her. How can he forget her? She is everything. She is perfect. Tom wants Christine. Now, the love for her never fades. It's still in his heart, not melting. Just struggling....
Tom can't have Christine. He couldn't break them apart. He wants to be more than friends. But now, he's still a friend who can't leaves her. He will wait until the day he totally let go of her.........No matter how many tears have gone.
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