Are You Enough?

       Her heart aches. She can't cry, tears just can't flow. They just swim around the cornea. Deep breaths.. She felt lonely. What brings her to this kind of situation? Is it her fault? Maybe it is. If not,they won't turn on her. But, she still feel clueless. Confused on what's going on these days. When she comes back,it's like everything has turn around. It's not the same anymore. Different in a bad way. They don't talk to her anymore. When she goes to them, they just turn around and leave. That's all? Why do they ignore her? What had she done that offend them? She wants to find out the answer so badly. However, nobody tells her. She wishes someone just pop out and solves her questions. They respond her in no interest at all. They sound tired. They react as if they want her to go away, to disappear from their sight. Seriously? Why don't they just block her? Why do they have to make her suffer in pain. Pain in her heart. Why do they have to let her know that they are there? But, they don't make an effort to talk to her. Aren't they friends all the while? She never forget them. Some things she did had reasons. It was not what had they expected. It was not the same. She wishes she could just explain them the real truth but they didn't ask her. They just left. She wants to pull them back and ask for the reason. Somehow,she's tired of this situation keep repeating again and again. So, she just give up and let them go. Totally not fine at all though she tells everyone that she is. What's the point? Nobody cares anymore. Is she selfish or them? She really don't want to lose them. She didn't mean to treat them that way. However, she does respond, she makes a conversation first. They so called friends didn't even bother to talk to her. When she makes the effort to say "hi" first, they replied the same thing. Soon, the next word is "bye". Sigh... What happen? Not friends anymore? Totally strangers now? At least, give her an explanation. Make things clear between them. She really don't want things to end just like this. No explanation. Just nothing. Why do they have to make things so difficult? She needs time to fix it. Just give her time, can't they? If that's what they want. Fine...She don't know what else can she do anymore. She tried. What's the point if she keeps on trying but no respond from them? More hope leads more pain. Just try to believe it's not just a false hope.