Past tense is past tense, past tense is the opposite of present tense. It'll never come back anymore. We should not look back, we should look in front and walk straight. No U-turns, just a highway. When L was trying to get her heart back, C shoved away his hand and walked away until out of sight. It was too late to apologize. C will never forgive those who hurt her, those who did big mistake. She might forgive him now, but she was not willing to accept him. It was over. It was like a yesterday trash, never pick it up, it will remain in the bin forever or demolished. When they first met, they were strangers, of course. L smiled at C, C felt weird and tried to stay away from him as far as she could. He freaked her out because she thought he was a pervert. Then, he tried to talk to her. The first word was "Hi!". She said hi back to him. When she tried to run away from him, he stopped her and asked for help. C nodded and walked with him to the office to help him. On the way, they both introduced themselves. Somehow, she still couldn't accept him as a friend because someone inside her brain kept telling her to be careful. As time passed, they got closer and became close friends. He confessed his feelings to her and he told her that he was willing to wait for her. She didn't know what to say but okay. He was the first person who confessed to her. Of course, she was not ready for it as she was too young. No matter how well he treated her, she just treated him as a friend. Although the rumors flown back and forth in school, she didn't care. The rumors made them became popular, people whispered in each other' ears whenever they saw them together. Some even cheered for that. L started to blush while C went on with her life. When she was standard 6, she got busier as she was the monitor. But, L got to see her often, his was so happy when he knew she was the monitor. Although they were different class, his class was just below her class. When those teacher were blabbing in front of the class, he would raise his head and looked at the ceiling blankly, wondering what was she doing upstairs. Sometime, he smiled for nothing, he didn't even notice that the girl beside him talked to him. All he kept thinking was bout her. He was in love with her for three years, she didn't give him any answer, but he was willing to wait. As long she was there, it was worth it. Whenever he saw her carried the books along the hallway, he would rush out to help her carried the books. His help was not necessary, but he would grab the books away from her hand. He smiled at her, she sighed with a smile on her face. When she started to has feeling for him, things began to change, the monitor,W in his class began to fall for her. They were best friends. After that incident, they were not anymore. Sometime, they fought. L began hot-tempered. C and W became close as they were the monitors. W flirted C, anger and jealousy began to rise in L's heart. Actually, C didn't like W at all because W was too playful. L was more suitable for her. But, L didn't notice it. Since then, L went along with the popular gang. His attitude changed, his style changed, the way he spoke changed. Everything was different. L still love her, though. C would not forget that day, the day L forced her to be his girlfriend. C didn't want, she was furious because he changed a lot, he was not the guy she liked anymore. When she said no, L scolded her and walked away. Although he scolded her, but his heart ached. He wanted to turn around and said sorry to her. C just stood there like a doll, she could see the tears coming out from his eyes. She knew this was not the end. A few days later, she heard bout the rumor that L had a relationship with a girl. She was shocked but she was not regret what she had done. If he wanted to have a relationship, he could. What he did didn't matter anymore. The next week, L came back to her and said sorry. He told her that he broke up with that girl. It was just a stupid mistake. He grabbed her hand and said I love you. tears were streaming down his face. While C face was cold. "Liar! You don't love me at all. You don't know what's love. Get back to her. You will regret. Once you did a mistake, It is forever a mistake. You started it." she said and shoved away his hand. "I don't like her at all. I was so angry last week. So mad. So confused. I didn't know what to do and this girl came out from nowhere and confessed to me. And...I just...accept her...I thought you didn't want me anymore."L said. "Is that all? Playing with her feelings? Is that what you can do? You jerk! Just stay away from me. I won't accept you, forever. And I will never forgive you. Forget bout me. Forget that we are friends." she said. He fell to his knees, more tears rushed down and grabbed her hand, didn't want to let her go. "Please give me a chance. Please..."he begged her. "No!I will never give you one more chance." she said the last word. Once again, she shoved away his hand and walked away. She clenched her hand into fist, hot tears began to stream down her hot cheek. Bent down her head, tried to hide away from other people' sight. She could feel L was still watching her from the back. Her heart ached, she felt awful for hurting him. But, she really didn't want to see him anymore. No matter how many time he apologized, it was useless.
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