Learn to let go

Stubborn is the only word she can describe herself. Stubborn for not letting go. Stubborn changed her, his existence changed her like a red apple into a rotten apple. Not that bad unless she is willing to let go from now on. Wrinkles will appear on her face soon if she still can't let go!!! So, if she don't want to be old, she know what to do. Not sitting there murmuring to herself, complaining to the God and crying helplessly in the corner. Somehow, let go is not easy. When it grows in your heart, it is hard to take it out. She needs time to heal her wound. Time will change everything. She loved him. Maybe is "loved". But will she catches a grenade for him? Who says a girl can't catches a grenade for a guy? Now is 2011! For him, everything is easy come and easy go. He takes it everything from you such as your hope and happiness but he will never give it back. She should have known she was in trouble when she fall him in the first place. Had her eyes wide open? Had her mind clear? Only she knows. She gave it all she had and he tossed it in the trash. She just asked for a reply, but he didn't. She knew he will never throw his hand on a blade for her, jump in front of a train for her. In fact, nothing. Mad man, bad man! That is just what he is! If her body was on fire, he'd watch her burn down in flames but he is a snake. Although there is nothing good about him, except that sweet smile which attracts her all the time. When there is a feeling, there is no reason to describe. Her heart's magnet just found the right magnet. North pole and South pole. Feeling like cursing him? Maybe but don't waste time because she will get tired not him. The magnet will dies soon, it's wilting. There is no reason to wait for him now. Watching the leaves drop on the group piece by piece makes her felt bored until out of breath. Sweeps away the brownish leaves, threw in the dustbin, and continue sitting there watch the tree again? Is this what she wants? The same old situation? Obviously, there is an answer although he did not speak out. So, forget bout it. What you don't know can hurt you deep inside. Maybe there is someone waiting for her around the corner, she just didn't notice because her eyes are always focusing on that bastard as what she called him. Maybe that person is waving his hand in the air, but she just can't see it because she's blind. Whatever. The future is in the God's hand. She has long time to think bout love. Can't get someone's love at this young age won't kill her. Maybe there is someone better than him waiting for her. Of course there is because he is not that good, just pass... Don't squat on the floor, don't beg him anymore and don't cry because of him anymore. Because, HE WILL NEVER squat on the floor begging for her and cry for her. Don't try to catch a grenade for him. In fact, try to throw a grenade towards him. Just kidding! Don't learn! It's bad...Say hi to him is enough, talk to him is enough but fall for him will bring her down again. Try to protect her heart, don't get carried away by the jerks. What he wants to do, let it be. Think bout the person who truly likes her, appreciate her, loves her and treat her like a human. They are the person who she truly needs.