You'll never allow me to enter your heart

Brandon won't forget the first time he saw her, her beautiful face. The beautiful sunlight shone on her face, the wind blew her hair backwards caused her face to gleam in the light. Her beautiful smile was pictured in his brain, he wouldn't forget her smile which is the most beautiful thing in the world. He watched Janice every day at school, he wanted to talk to her so badly, but he didn't have the courage to do that. When he opened his mouth,nothing came out as if something had stuck in his throat. When she online, he would immediately double click and sent message to her. His face enlighten with a grin, he felt nervous and excited, he was waiting for her to reply. No word to type except hi and how are you. The beginning of the topic is always the same, but Brandon was satisfied with it. He could stare at her photo for hours, he was not being a pervert, he just like her too much. Every night, he would dream that Janice and him being together. It was the sweetest dream, unfortunately it was not a reality. One day, he made up his mind to confess his feelings towards her. She didn't feel happy bout it, she told him that she just like him as a friend and she offline. Brandon cried for the first time, she hurt him as if she stabbed a knife into his heart. He closed his mouth with his hand to stop himself from crying, he wouldn't give up, he would wait for her. He kept convinced to himself that she would come to him one day. The next day in the morning, Brandon saw Janice again, she was walking towards him, he stood there like a wood and waited for her. He couldn't see anything but her. The people around him had vanished, the sound of the people talking disappeared into the air. The rustle sound of the trees and the whooshing sound of the wind stopped as if they were watching them, watching Janice approached him. When she came to him,she smiled and said hi. Her beautiful smile was back, Brandon said hi back. "I'll wait for u,Janice."Brandon said. "Why? We are just friends,forever."Janice asked. Forever. The word went into his ears,ran down his spine and stabbed through his heart. "Because I really like you. Is there another reason?"Brandon asked. "There is someone else and I really like him. He's special to me. Please don't wait for me anymore." Janice finished her sentence and walked away. Brandon grab her arm and told her not to go,not to leave him just like that. She said sorry and pushed his hand away, made her way to her class. He could feel that her eyes were cold, not the friendly Janice, he felt shameful standing there like a lonely boy who has been left behind. He watched her walked away until out of sight, he couldn't forget her. He wished there was a hole for him to hide, cry as loudly as he could, let the pain to fade away. I know who is he, I hate him, he whispered. Janice ran away from his gaze every time he looked at her and she didn't reply his message anymore as if she didn't know him. That night, he shifted his gaze upwards to the sky, tears ran down from the corner of his eye. The last thing he could do was to pray the God that Janice would be happy. He knew there was no other space for him to enter her heart, he was not the one for her.